won Astro's prize

that day, is a public holiday. since there is no class so i wake up late abit--almost 9.45am. suddenly, i heard the bell rang, someone was shouting around then my mum went down to look around who was that. it's a pos from Asrtro!!!

before this, i had participate in Dynasty Package-Home to Stars contest and knew that i am one of the winner but just for a small prize which available for 60 participants only---it's just a mobile strap.(better than nothing la) the Astro staffs had confirm my address with me before for several time.i am happy for wining that although is just a mobile strap because it's the first time i participate in online contest.

dada~it's my mobile strap (although is very ugly, xexe...)

a friend

after the first sem, i found some friends that can be said as same tone with me and i am happy when go together with them. we planned to have a same timetable for the next sem but unfortunately, few of them have their own problem and can't follow it so only one of them manage to get the same timetable with me...

a few weeks after the 2nd sem, i found some problem between us. most of the time in the campus, i always take care of her and treat her as my sister(or better than that). she just behave like a princess, maybe she is the one her parents care the most or what. i know it's hard to change own behavior and attitude so i just endure with it and be tolerate.

she likes to joke and sometimes she hurted me by the words and she did't realise. i knew it's unintentionally so i never take it seriously and forget it after awhile...

but one day, after the tutorial class, all students went out to take back their bags. at that time i was standing behind her and saw a guy was standing in front of the rack and kept chatting there. i knew she wanted to take her bag but blocked by that stupid guy, so i just said 'excuse me' with a louder sound than normal (i think it's ok to say that word loud abit). then the guy also said 'excuse me' to his friend with the loud voice also. after taking our bag, maybe my action made her felt embarras and ashame so she said a rude word to me...

but my starting point was to help her, so i felt very angry and thinking whether want to bother her again. while walking, i didn't said anything to her but we returned to normal and chatting together because there was a class after that, so i kept that aside...

a few days after that incident, i was thinking whether want to let her know. but some of my friend said that i should talk to her but i worry about what will be to our relationship after that. she will be angry and don't bother me again? or we will know each other better? it mades me think alot...

that day, finally i talked to her. i am glad that she be considerate and understand me...those action she made to me maybe she already took me as her best friend so she act in her natural way...anyway, i glad to have such a friend...

an accident

if i am not remember wrongly, i met it last tuesday. after i finished all the classes about 4pm, i drove my car back through east gate. just passing through the roundabout, the car in front suddenly emergency break and stopped there.there is nothing in front of it also, haiz...the expected incident happened--my sportage 'kiss' the pajero.

at that moment, i scared and had a message in my mind: if the driver is a guy, i will go out of the car; if not, bye bye~(don't know why i will think like that, maybe i think guy driver will be fierce)xexe...unfortunately, the pajero parked to the roadsite and i saw a female driver...(Oo)

i think that is the first time she being 'kissed', i can regconise from her panic face, same to me...but of course, i am not panic...u must wondering what i did that time,is it?how am i settle this down?...

i tell you, maybe you will feel that i am a irresponsible person.in malaysia taffic law, the one 'kiss' other from back is wrong,no matter what the situation is! haiz...but in fact, it's her fault because she suddenly emergency break without reason. and, if i go out from the car, sure i have to 'ganti rugi' already, so i just went away fast...(Oo) hope that she is not clever enough that know to remember my car number, i think she is not beacuse so far i didn't receive any saman or others...

sick already...wuwu...

this monday, after finished webpage lecture, yit mun, siew cheng and i planning to go for meat-ing in the cafeteria.that day, yit mun wore a deep blue hoody which similar with my jacket, so it looks alike when view us from back and siew cheng managed to take a photo from the back view...

guess who is me???

when it's the time for management studies lecture in the coldest room--DDK2, all of us started to put on our sweater and for sure yit mun didn't since she was wearing hoody...after a while, i felt very cold, it's cold then normal...(it's veru super cold, wuwu~)but they felt it's normal just cold abit. after that, we had a tutorial for writing for business.although already left DDK2, i still felt cold.(weird isit??) so after putting my stuff in the tutorial room, i went out and had some fresh air and hope to become warmer...yit mun was following me there adn siew cheng managed to take a photo for us again...

i think this photo is more obvious...

after i went back, i took a bath with the hottest water (of course not 100 degree, just maximum of the water heater) for a long time to warm up my body. then, my parent said i am in fever so i slept after taking medicine for 2-3 hours...wuwu~

luckily, i am recovered after that but still felt tired so that night, i slept early at 10pm...i recover very fast isit???haha...

shopping again...

last friday, the day yit mun wiated for long time--shopping. after finished the tired and boring marketing lecture and sociology tutorial (#the boringness is because of both of the tutor and lecturer), my mum fetched us to the bus station . luckily, we got a air-con bus at 1pm.then, we start 'booming' each other and chit-chatting...(boom=saying ownself strength and weakness by just for kidding)

when it's about 2.30pm, we finally reached perade.after washing up and refreshing ourself, we started our mission that day...after we went out from the toilet, i saw the marrybrown and asked her to take a look or even take a picture sice she said she don't know what is marrybrown.(she know actually but just forget the name of it) haha...since i just had a sandwich for my breakfast that day, i went up to have my 'crepe' and a bamboo juice as snack or something like teatime...but as i was eating, yit mun kept on taking photo of my 'crepe'...what so special with that???

after that, we planned to shop from the top which is hip hop zone to the ground floor...but after walking around the zone, she said that is so attract her and she can't buy because she had to buy what she planned to buy first, so i brang her to buy the formal shirt first then only continue our 'mission'...

after finished our 'mission', it's already about 8pm.at that time, my honey already reached at the front of perade...then, we just ended up our shopping day with a dinner at ipoh...

things i bought...

a cap...

a scarf...

heel...

and a jeans...

a happy shopping day with yit mun...yeepi~

lucky and unlucky

i can't get the parking sticker again, wuwu...so unlucky...
today, i have one lecture class(writing for mass communication) only because there is no tutorial class on the 1st week. the lecturer, mr chan is so funny, when the class started, he asked us to do a mexican wave, hopefully you all know what is that...i think that is to warm us up so we all just follow. he is so talkative, wanted to talk so many funny things to make us laugh.

after about an hour, he still haven't touch the lecture notes...haiz...waste time there...maybe can be said he had touched a bit la...he asked what is communication and asked all of us to stand up and get into partner in two and hold the hand.he said the pairs must hold the hands up and shout out the answer together then only can sit...(wa...)

can you imagine how many answers you can get from all the students in ddk1?in order to sit and not to sing a song in front of so many students, many answers came out, such as share info, facebook, maxis, telephone...maybe not so accurate but anything related also have been shouted out. finally, a pair of girls can't give the answer so they had been punished by singing a song, the song they sang is 'happy birthday'(so special...)

for me and my partner, yit mun, we didn't answer him but we sat down.(haha...guess why...)we 'curi curi' sat down without attention of him at the beginning because there are still many people haven't sat down, haha...(lucky...)

at the end, he only spent less than 30 minutes to finish the lecture notes, maybe the notes are too short la...i feel his class is like a show, making people laugh more than really lecturing...for some student may be good because it's a relaxing class...

STUPID Big A!!!

last sat is my fren--kayu's birthday. since i am going to KL on sat, we all celebrate his birthday on the day before--friday. After confirm the time we all available, we decided to celebrate with singing K in big A because that is the only karaoke in bandar baru (no choice!)and we've long time didn't gather to sing K since i start my foundation.

that day, we(kayu, heong, wen fei, and me)arrived big A around 8pm and swee yee came later because she had tuition before that. Before i entered to the room, i've brang a cappucino cake to the counter that i bought that morning in 'just to eat'.

at about 11pm, a stupid waitress came in and asked, "isit anyone bought a cake?" i said, 'yes'." we've exchanged the cake with the other room, but we still have another cake, isit OK?" (what a stupid question?! can i say not OK?) Then, i went out and checked what the 'other' cake look like.

I think that would be a cake from 'just to eat' and about 1/2 kg like what i bought so that they mistaken it. But, when she took the cake, damn, it's a vanilla cake from 'Cake's Inn' which the box was in green colour.(how can u mistaken?! the box from 'just to eat' is in orange colour, are you colour blind?!) then, i said OK to her with my sour face and went back to the room.then, she brang a jar of orange juice in for aplologise.

I told all to my friends but i didn't talk with angry tone because the main character is there so that don't break his mood. Around 11.35pm, i went out with swee yee to take the cake in. because i was the one who hold the cake in, so i did know the cake is not enough 1/2 kg. In order not to distract them, i didn't talk anything, just sing the birthday song.

the cake is so small until can be said is only enough for 5 people to eat, actually the cake i bought is enough for kayu to bring almost half back.(so dissappointed!) i think they were not wrongly exchanged the cake but spoilt it and went to buy another cheap cake(reminder: vanilla flavour is the cheapest cake) from the nearest cake shop in hurry. the original cappucino cake cost rm22 which shared by swee yee, heong, wen fei, xin yi and me and yet, we end up by eating a cake much cheaper and undelicious vanilla cake...

the 'other' cake...

after we finished our cake, we played the cream and put on kayu face and we've dirty some part of the sofa accidentally.we all scared kayu will hug or put on us, so we went out the room. the waitress asked whether we are playing the cream, and she warned us will we will be fined for it.(os: who buy us a undelicious vanilla cake?!)we went in and cleaned it up...

at 12am--the time our package had finished, we out the room and back. when we reached the entrance, the waiters asked us to wait awhile and they checked the room. after they said that we are allowed to go, we only can go.(stupid! are we primary or secondary student?!)

at the end, i very 'beh song' but i said nothing in order to give a memorable 18th birthday to kayu. i swear i never go to big A again if possible even can't sing k already...

 

anyway, happy birthday to kayu!

yeah~

1st time bake cake...

this is the first time i bake cake, so i choose the easiest cake--banana cake to bake, xexe...that morning, 'my sifu'--mum, brang me out to buy the ingredient needed. (icing sugar, egg, butter and of course, banana) when it's about 4pm, i awake from my sweet nap and prepared for that...

all apparatus and ingedients needed...

after my mum took out all the apparatus, it's the time we started our 'big' project, haha...first, cut 200g of banana into pieces. next, put 250g of 'mother choice' butter,eggs, cake flour, soda flour...then just mix up all those ingredients...

the ugly face of the cake before baking...

during baking...

dada...my nice-looking cake is born...

actualy, baking cake is an easy job for me, maybe it's just for banana cake, xexe...i think others cake will be quite challenging because i am not so interested in baking and cooking but eating, haha...

my result...wuwu~

yesterday, after i brushed up my tooth and washed my pretty face and prepare to have a sweet dream, suddenly i remembered that i haven't harvest my plant in my farmville, so i jumped up from the bed and sit in front of my laptop and do it because they will wilt if i harvest them after a long time, xexe...

when i am harvesting my plant, siew cheng nudged me in msn and asked my whether had checked the result, emun too. so i hurry up go and checked my result, what a feel of panic that time?! but damn, i can't log in to the utar portal page. then immidiately i thinked of the way i log in to register for the next sem subject.(add 's' after http, haha...) really! it's work.

when i click to the sem result, my heart nearly dropped off. luckily, it's not bad but still, i can't reach the target i set (3.8 and above). i get B+ in english, haiz...i know it will be like that since i am not good in english. however, i have to say 'thank you' to min zhi because he had thought us (siew cheng, her friends, and i) the days before exam, maybe the effect would'nt be so big but at least helpful to us, thanks...

maybe my target is a bit high but i will try my best, i hope that i can at least get the half scholarship at the end to reduce my parent's burden. so in the coming sem, i have to work harder to reach it.crystal, gamabateh...

the 'good' result i get this semester...

weird thing...

A weird thing happened these 2 days... my mum had received a bill from TMnet for the streamyx package used, the amount is rm120 (it's more than 1 month! about 2 months, it's weird!!!) since the the package we register for is rm60 per month.

the rm120 weird bill...

yesterday, my mum go to the TM point centre to ask for the explanation after fetching my sis back from school. i don't know whether the staff don't know how to explain or what reason, my mum don't know what she said and my sis not so good in malay and english, so it's so irritated for my mum. some more, the staff's alttitute is bad, she is impatient to serve my mum, never try to explain in detail and only want to explain with the paper attached with the bill (my dad will throw that paper since it's not useful, he said just keep the bill is enough) When my mum showed her the last month's bill and asked her again, she don't even care and look at the bill, the alttitude really annoying!!!

today, my mum asked me to go with her and asked the stupid staff again. Again, after fetching my sis, we went to the TMpoint. i pressed the postage printer and it's came out with number--1172 , then i wait. when it's my turn, i asked the staff. in fact, the reason is there is an adjustment whereby the payment had became prepaid already, normally it's postpaid, so we have to pay for 2 months for this bill. since my mum only pay me rm60, so i just pay for 1 month only.

after i get into the car, i told all to my mum, then she just realised and understand. what so difficult to explain?! really don't know what is the problem, maybe there is communication breakdown and both of them have to go for public speaking class, haha...

holiday

These two days, i feel a bit boring and tired. Maybe i can't stay for late night starting now because i felt a bit painful on my chest yesterday when i was writting the blog, so i have to be more becareful already.(if not, i will die very fast,haha...)anyway, sleeping late is not a good habit.

i think in this holiday, the food i always eat as breakfats is the 'lao shu fen'. you must think of why i always eat that since there are various food in kampar available, the reason is: everyday my mum goes to the market early in the morning and i haven't wake up that time, so she will buy me a breakfast, then she will go to my dad's factory to give him a hand. So when i wake up, i have to heat them up again. Every night when she will ask me what i want to have as breakfast tommorrow, i also don't know how to answer her, just say whatever la, haha...then she just buy 'lao shu fen', because only that stall will open everyday and the others will rest one day per week(anyday), so what if i say want to eat that particular food and that stall off?

the 'lao shu fen' i eat everyday...sienz...

haiz...if u ask me what have i done this holiday, my answer will be: eat, sleep, watch movie/tv show, online (can go shopping if lucky). it;s just the same like a pig, haha...i had watched some tvb show: 古灵侦探B, 强剑...this is the only way to fill up my sparetime.

there is only about 1 week time left in my holiday, what else can i do? i never want my holiday finish so fast, i don't want to start the new sem so fast, i don't want to face the exam again...wuwu~ but this is the truth i have to face it.

给你的一番话

我之前不是太了解你，也很少跟你谈天，就算有也只是‘一句起两句止’。经过差不多一年没一起，我总觉得你变了。。。觉得你变得有点把保护自己的墙壁给砌厚了，比起以前天真烂漫的你差好多。。。

不知道这一年之内你身边到底发生了什么事，还是面对了什么不愉快的事，我想应该是这些事改变了你。这段时期，我也对你的事略有所闻，知道你进入了一个行业也很努力地考取了执照，同时也经常对这事忙东忙西的，到处参加课程等。。。在这之前我也知道你有一段不太愉快的感情，虽然不太了解事情的来龙去脉，不过我想你多多少少都会受到一些伤害。

经过那一天，我对你的感觉就是难以亲近，说话变得聪明了，可能是因为你进修了那行业的课程。你总是能问出别人的事而当别人问起你的时候，你就不让他知道，把自己的事收得紧紧的，然后很婉转的把话题移开，十足在打太极一样。（厉害！）当我跟你聊天的时候，我不觉得我们像朋友在谈天，像被你访问的感觉，只有你问我答。有时你还蛮会挖苦人家的，因而人家就会觉得你不太容易亲近，也可能不太喜欢跟你讲话。偶尔挖苦朋友可能会是种乐趣，不过你呢就是十句有四句都是挖苦别人的话，造成别人对你的反感，这可不是件好事啊！

对于你这些特色，可能对你的兼职不会有所帮助因为你的顾客可能会觉得有点压力，因为当你有特定目的而面对某人时，你的目的根本就是写在脸上，每个问题都是针对那目的的，也不太会开玩笑。我想如果身为你的顾客，他们会希望你把他们当作朋友，有说有笑。。。

可能这些东西你都不会发觉因为它们都会很自然的表露出来，所以当我说你比较保护自己的时候，你就说‘我没有在隐藏任何事’。

#这些只是我对你的一番真心话，可能会不太好听但是这都是出自我的一番真心，如有得罪的地方，希望你不要生气。。。（对不起！）

shopping day...

Today, i have date with my fren, bee kei to go for shopping in parade. Because of some reason, our plan have to be postponed to 12pm. This is the first time i took the bus with auntie to collect the money from us (normally will be man), she is so 'fierce'. When the 2 foreign workers paid her a RM1 because of not having RM0.20(i don't know whether they have but don't know what the auntie saying or what happened), the malay auntie scolded them with the word 'bodoh', thinking of they don't know they don't understand.When we reached ipoh parade, it's already about 2pm. Somehow we have chit-chatting a lot in the bus, but bee kei seem to be impatient to reach there.Before this, she said 'no winter shopping is allowed', so i think she is too eager to shopping, haha...

We planned to start our shopping from the ground floor, we had eaten ice-cream there. I had bought a tshirt from voir, a cut-in from F.O.S, a shirt from hip-hop zone. After that, we were tired so we decided to take a meal at the food court with sizzling mee and iced lemon tea at about 4 something. Then , we moved on to the back part of parade--parkson. I had bought a tshirt for my loving dad and a shirt for my honey from 'forest', actually i don't have enough money already so i borrewed rm30 from bee kei to pay it.

Since i am waiting my honey to come and fetch me, i have to wait until about 6 something. I saw a book fair and i am not so 'fren with books but bee kei like reading so she just stand there and starting to read her book and some mind test (if not, she so noisy want to back), so i did't disturb her, i just find a bench to sit (can be said rest my legs because bee kei never let me rest or sit went shopping, don't shopping be relax and comfortable?!haiz...)When she came and find me, we continue to walk to the floor below. Suddenly, i saw a bag i am looking for quite a time but i can't buy it because of the 'drying' of my purse, haiz...

At that time, bee kei was calling oneFM to participate a contest because she already know the answer for the question asked (What activity people spend almost 5 months in a life?), knowing the prize of the contest had already accumulated to RM5000, i also helped her to call in. Finally, she had called-in to oneFM but the guy said the answering section had over, asked her to call-in again tomorrow at 6pm. Then, we sat on a bench and start chit-chatting again...

Finally, my honey and his friend had came but by seeing bee kei's expression, i know she already 'beh song' (sorry ya~because they are in traffic jam, really.) Then, we 4 going to eat the famous food in ipoh (i think you all know wat food am i talking is). After that, we just went back to kampar since don't know why bee kei is impatient to return home. After i took bath, my sis, my honey's fren, my honey and i went to KFC to have some snacks (cheezy wedges and fun fries). Again, chit-chatting till about 10.30pm then we just return home. However, i am still happy today because of buying many 'leng leng' shirt.

mid-autumn

The mid-autumn for this year abit special for me...that day, i am damn boring since i am in sem break and have nothing to do. Luckily, that day is my fren, xin yi's birthday, so i went out to buy a present for her, by sharing with my high school frens. By that, i wouldn't be so boring till 'mushrooms' are grown on my head. That time, my sis boring also, so i bring her to mu aunt's house since she is so 'fren' with my cousin. Then, i went to look for xin yi's present, thinking of maybe i can buy some clothes, xexe...I bought a purse 'accidentally', but the real accident is i never check my purse before, when i open it, it has only rm20 in all rm1, haha....luckily still enough to pay for that purse, if not, really 'FISH'!!!

the purse i bought 'accidentally', it's really nice but i am a bit worry because it's white in colour, scare will be dirty easily, have to take care of it carefully...

Then, i went back home to 'refill' my purse, by rm150 saving in the drawer and continue my mission. I found a cute big bear in my mum's fren shop, i think it will be a good birthday present for xin yi, so I bought it...Actually, i am planning to sing k to celebrate with her at night but unfortunately, swee yee and heong not free, so we just give xin yi a present...

xin yi's birthday present from us (wen fei, lo, chai, heong, lune, kayu, swee yee and i)

Later, i go to fetch my sis back from aunt's home and my aunt invite us to have dinner at their house. Then, i went back to take a bath and facebook-ing awhile then only go to aunt's house with my mum since my dad also have to go for a wedding dinner. Actually, i am dislike my aunt's dishes because they're so plain...

After a while, all of us and aunt's neighbours sit together and eat something after the grandma pray to the moon such as mooncake, peanut, fruits, jelly mooncake.....Suddenly, my dad gave me a call that he had finished the dinner and bought some fried chicken wings and crabs, so my mum ask him to bring along to here. Then, when i put them on the table, all the auntie said 'don't want, don't want', but then all finished there, haha...(they can be said as my family real meal, not like my aunt's dishes and i ate not much, xexe...)

My cousins, my sis and i chit-chatting until 11pm, then i just went home with my mum since my sis said want to stay overnight at my aunt's home to sleep with my cousin. That's how my mid-autumn this year, although nothing special, but can be said happy also...

what happen to me?

am i good enough? am i feeling too proud with my own self? am i always want to win and be the top? am i unhappy that someone has pulling me down? am i too stress to my own? is my 'face' too thin? or m i really not that good? am i???
i don't know what happen to me, but i know this is my weakness. Maybe not everyone can realise it but some close friends or people who care me. Although i know they wish to help me but sorry, i am the one don't know how to express myself, my feeling, anything. i never want people to know what am i really thinking deeply inside or even hide them if i can. i think all of them never expect that i am a person like this. sometimes i hate myself also. care about all the things i did especially something with my abilities, is it my fault?

tired week

my econ presentation group...

I am very tired after last week maybe is because of the assignments (econ and talk show).The day after econ presentation, we only start our preparation, draw the mahjong paper and so on...since we get the question on saturday before and we have to present it on tuesday, some more we don't really know about the question, IT"S REALLY HARD!!! it's about GDP, the subject i don't really understand...haiz...but luckily we can finish it by getting information from min zhi's auntie and his mum...what a big project...haha...the day when presentation, actually we all plan to 'plagiarise' some lecturer's and tutor's ways to teach to present our topic, but unfortunately seems that everyone is 'brain freezed' , so that we don't do like that, if not, the situation will be 'cold'...haiz...but luckily our presentation can end 'in peace'...

my talk show group...i am looking so weird there...

kar sin is missing there because sick already...

With the special attire of tung yen and kar sin, we get a 41/50...is it can be considered as a good result or not?since it cannot hit our target...anyway, it's good enough already and our efforts are not wasted because we really did a lot for that. Luckily, I din't spoil the show...

I was informed to get the scholarship on last Sunday from the temple association at 9am. So that day, i wake up early in the morning just to get my 'fruit' of my result. After having breakfast, i went to the hall on time because I think that the scholarship will be distributed from SPM to UPSR but then it's from UPSR to SPM...wuwu~i had waited long time about 2 hours there...if i know will be like that, I will sleep enough then only go for that. I get RM100 for it which means each A in my result is only worth for RM10...wuwu~ so cheap...but better than nothing la...xexe...

finally

Finally, the mid term is finished.Again, i don't have confidence the most in eng paper...Anyway, it's a good news to finish the mid term test but there is also a bad news, i have to continue doing assignments again (econ presentation, talk show computer studies presentation and english grammar presentation)... Really, as what Mr Nawin say before, after week 3 we will be pressured especially assignments...it's true...so many assignments are waiting for me...I think next sem will be more assignments...wuwu~

Yesterday, I get a form on my table, that is scholarship form offered by persatuan Cheng Ying Lian Hua, the requirement is my parents have to be the member lukily my dad is the one...haha...Then, my friend told my that "Pei Yuan Senior Club" gt offer scholarship also.Today, my sister get the form for me already.OMG! pareants have to be the member again but my pareants didn't enter as member...now i am looking for my friend's parents or relatives to write their name as my guardian in the form so that it can offer me...some more i can get extra money because of getting A in bahasa cina...(it's a chance to 'earn' money using my result, haha...)

happy happy...

I get my midterm result in public speaking today.i get 29/30, so happy...i never aspect this such high mark because there are still many classmates stronger than me....however, i am happy and satisfy with that...So far, i feel that public speaking is the easiest paper in midterm and computer studies is the hardest(so many things to memorise like history)...wuwu~some more next tues night will be the english test, i have no idea of what to study and it is the subject i have the less confidence to do it well...what can i do is just pray for it...

nearly finish mid term...

haiz...finally finished the mid term test, now just left math test 2 and english test...i am so worry about the english test since my english so poor some more have vocabulary in it, i have to convert it into another word...scare cannot score la...wuwu~
Although 70% of the mid term test are done,but still cannot take rest and relax.There is still a talk show waiting for me...last week, we just formed our group, consists of chun way, kar sin(mr confuse), tung yen and the group leader is gary, so i am the only girl in the group.when we discussing what the topic to choose, these guys really can't tahan la...(whole brain full of 'yellow' things) maybe i can be considerate because they are guys ma...haha...what the hell they choosed the 'pornography' as topic and tung yen and me have to be the porn movie star (so embarassing...)Think also know that topic so super sensitive la, how can score with that topic! Even worse, before this, they choosed rape as topic and i be the victim, stand up to say the feeling (OS:where got the rape victim willing to come out and say out the feeling aloud?! so 'special')If you are the tutor, will you give high marks to such group with that kind of topic? That's why i not really agree with that topic....
Finally, we had change our topic to plastic surgery, that's sound much better right?I think so...and, my senior told me never try to do sensitive topic or else you will get low marks, and he said there was a group in his class did plastic surgery and get the highest mark...i am not sure that whether i can get the highest mark or not unless not the lowest mark...we draw lots before and we are the 3rd group to present,that's after min zhi's group.scare la...so stress...he's too geng...hope my group can do it well la...good luck to me~lucky~

活著讓你好好愛我

这是一个真实的故事……一天一个男孩送给他的女朋友一台汉显传呼机，温柔的对她说："我以后再也不怕找不到你了。"女孩调皮的说："如果我离开这座城市，你就呼不到我了。"男孩得意的摇摇头："我可是办了漫游的，无论你走到哪里我都会呼到你"女孩问他的传呼号是什么，男孩说："这是爱情专线，号码不公开。"从此女孩每天都把它带在身边，一刻也不离开。在一个阳光明媚，让人有一份好的不得了的心情的周末，女孩只留了一张字条给父母，坐上汽车奔向邻近的县城游玩，但是没有人知道女孩正走向一场灾难。女孩县城玩了一天，拖着沉沉的脚步找到一间带淋浴的小旅馆。一走进房间，女孩迫不及待的走进浴室，想洗去一身的疲惫。当女孩正准备脱衣服的时候，脚下一阵晃动，她急忙扶住一根铁管，心想错觉吗？但是当第二次晃动，女孩知道这不是错觉。跟随第二次的晃动中还带有急促和沉闷的断裂声，女孩的全身开始颤栗，她知道可怕的地震来了，随! 着第三第四次的更加猛烈的震动，无边的黑暗和无边的恐惧把女孩紧紧的包裹起来女孩象一只受伤的野兽，拼命的放声号叫，拼命的拍打、撕咬浴室的门板。然而一切都是徒劳，女孩无力的蜷缩在阴凉冷漠的地上。不知过了多久，忽然腰间一阵颤动，是呼机。女孩匆匆的摘下它，在黑暗中摸索着按到了键子，即看到了绿色的光芒："林先生请你七点钟到老地方见面。"读着这句话，女孩的泪水又一次涌出来，滑过嘴角。咸咸涩涩的。想着电话那边的他，女孩又再一次尝试着走出困境，但是是再一次的徒劳与绝望。女孩跌坐在地上，把自己缩成一团，眼睛盯着呼机的屏幕。不知过了多久，女孩睡着了，又不知过了多久，呼机再一次在女孩的手中颤动了："林先生问你在哪里，请速回电话。"女孩再一次的流下眼泪，我想告诉你我在哪里，但是我办不到啊。渐渐的女孩平静了下来，面对无法挽回的死亡，女孩不知道自己还能做什么。 呼机第三次震动："去了你家，看到你留下的字条，请火速回家。"女孩的心又开始躁动。呼机第四震动："我听到广播，知道你那里发生了什么，相信你此时正拿着呼机读我的话，我们很快会见面的。"似乎有一缕曙光在女孩的眼前闪过。女孩期待呼? 谖宕蔚恼鸲?BR>，此时的呼机成了他生命唯一的寄托。时间一分一秒的过去了，呼机象一个疲惫的孩子一样睡着了。终于第五次的震动来了："我去找你，车不通，想尽各种办法，还是无功而返。我相信你不会出问题的，你是一个聪明又好运的女孩。我等待你的归来！"第六次，第七次。。。。女孩在男孩一次又一次的传呼中度过了一个又一个恐惧与绝望的时刻，不知不觉已经两天两夜了。死亡的阴影越来越紧的箍住女孩的全身，仿佛看到自己体内的鲜血和肌肉正被一条黑色的巨蛇一口一口贪婪的吞噬。女孩觉得自己快不行了，连哭泣的力量都没有了，她的思想开始混乱，感觉自己正在往下沉，就在沉到底的时候，呼机第三十八次，也许第四十八次，五十八次震动起来，那震动象磁铁一样，牢牢的吸住了女孩体内残余的所有能量："我们什么时候结婚？举行哪些仪式？从现在开始我们分别设想一下，日后评出最佳方案。"结婚，婚礼，实在是太诱人了，女孩陷入了遐想之中。海底婚礼，象鱼一样自由自在穿梭在海洋世界；跳伞婚礼，与白云并肩飞在空中……女孩再一次振作起来，是啊，人生那么美好，又有多少美好的人生的等着我呢。第六十次，第六十一次。……男孩! 一次又一次的向女孩传呼，一次又一次的给女孩 注入生命的活力；一次又一次的把女孩的生存信念从崩溃的边缘拉回来……度过了漫长的四个昼夜，女孩获救了。当他看到男孩惨白的脸，火一样的眼睛，一下子明白了世间最为珍贵的就是爱。女孩在担架上轻轻的拉着男孩的手，柔柔的说："我是你今生的新娘"。活着让你好好爱我！！！

Touching story...

I have been touched by a real story told by my lecturer, ms Chan...
There was a woman who had a happy and perfect family with her husband and a 3 years old daughter...
One day, she found that she had a cancer, the doctor said it's cannot be cured and she will die one day, then she asked her husband not to tell her daughter about that but then she had to stay in hospital all the time...
Everyday, her husband will bring the daughter to visit her mum and play with her to have fun time.When they are on the way, the husband will give a call to her,"Dear, we are on the way."
Then the woman just get up with her pale face and tired body. She called the nurses to make up for her, took off the patient clothes and dressed nicely, as pretty as she can to meet with her lovely daughter.They will play around the hospital, chit-chatting, having fun with that since the daughter don't know what is hospital and what is it for.She just think that it is the place for her to play and having fun with her mum....
This is going on everyday again and again until her doctor said :"Can you stop doing that?! Your body is becoming weaker and weaker, you're using all your energy for that or else you cannot life long with that.""No, I will continue do that, please help me."she said.The nurses and doctor now only realise how much she love her daughter and don't want her daughter being hurt.Whenever she is playing with her daughter around the hospital, the nurses cannot even smile since she is sacrifying her own to make her daughter happy.
Until one day, she had no more energy to play with her daughter anymore or even can't get up from the bed.When her daughter came, she said: "My dear, mummy is very tired, want to sleep, can you play for your own with big brothers and sisters outside?" The daughter said:"okay, mum." Then she just went out and start jumping here and there to have fun. Her mum is then took her last breathe and passed away...
Now, the little girl is grown up to about 16 years old. Whenever she is been asking:"Where is your mum?" She will answer :"Mummy is very tired, she is sleeping now." After she answered it, she will always turn back and cry since it is the last word that her mother left to her...
so touching right? I feel so... don't know what you all feel to it...

"loh kah ying"

This is first time I have my own blog...
don't know what to write or share with you all...
Today, I finally finished my 5 minutes presentation.Actually the presentation is started two weeks ago, since I am the last one, so I just finished today, already scare about 2 weeks about this...And, all of this is our class rep,tom yam's fault, because before this our tutor is Ms Anulia, quite a good tutor.She asked tom yam whether want to do the presentation by following the name list or draw lots.When he knew that he will enter the 1st group if follow the name list so he said draw lots.Then I become the last one already, actually I am the 1st if following the name list...haih...
A weeks ago, our public speaking tutor is changed to Mr Chee...OMG! If you want me to define how he looks like, I would like to say he looks like "loh kah ying",haha...it's not bad enough,but the even worse...he so straight to us, he wanted us to do hardcopy for presentation for him, don't know whether is he don't know what are we talking about or just give marks from the outline...haiz...
Maybe you all don't know how big is my cue card, it's even smaller than half of my palm and is just 1 piece.When I finished presenting my topic, that "loh kah ying" 's comment to me is "TOO MUCH READING FROM CUE CARDS!", my respone is just "ha?" At that time, I really want to punch him or throw my shoes to him...damn...Anyway, it's over already.
Say truly, I really scare when I presenting my topic.When the classmates before me presenting, all just noisy and kacau sahaja.When it's my turn, suddenly all quiet and looks so attention to my speech...hey, guys, so scary la...don't be like this, please...