自卑

最近我发觉我开始不太喜欢到购物商场去了。。。不知道是我自卑心作祟还是什么。。。

每次我到那里去，总觉得那些女孩都穿得比我漂亮，身材比我好，化妆都化的很美。。。即使那些只是十四十五岁的小妹妹，心里就不禁有些自卑了。

当和林去看半夜场电影时，这些感觉就更加厉害了。你们都知道电影院里出现的男女都打扮得很漂亮，穿洋装、高跟鞋、小可爱、化妆什么的。当他们用异样的眼光看我的时候，我就会心想：是我穿得太难看吗？是我太胖太丑吗？（还是我想太多）当林遇见他的朋友的时候，有时我也会很不好意思，可能觉得我会让他很没面子吧！

自从上大学之后，我就越来越胖了。。。我也不想啊！
每个学期都辛苦得要命，lectures, tutorials, assignments, presentations...有时不明白还要double lecture或tutorial...每课的时间都不定，害我三餐都不定时。。。我的食量比起那些瘦得要命的女生来的还小，我这样还会胖，还有天理吗？如果叫我运动的话，我忙得连睡的时间都不够啊~还叫我运动！有时间我倒不如补眠--补回考试失去的珍贵睡眠时间。你们可以说那些都是我的借口,也可以说我懒。。。

可能是因为我觉得我的外壳不够好，所以都会尽量用其他东西补救。。。
我会时常问他：我对你好吗？你给我几分？
可能在我的内心，总觉得对不起他吧。在我们认识的那段时间，虽然我称不上大美女但也不比现在差吧，至少是比现在来得瘦。

我也会问自己：我的优点是什么？我总找不出答案。
是成绩好吗？除此我找不出任何答案。但是谁会认为这是当女朋友的优点啊！（可能是比别人胖吧，可以当枕头）

直到现在，成绩好是我唯一胜人之处所以我会尽全力做到最好。。。之前，有朋友问我，为什么你成绩这么好？如果我能像你就好了！
那我现在应该能给他这么一个答案了，我看她现在应该没那么羡慕我了吧。。。

不过，我已经决定了，要减肥！要明年过年前把自己变回以前的样子，不管成不成功，我都尽力而为，至少尝试了。加油！

degree 1st sem

this is the 1st sem of degree i have been in UTAR...in the 1st week, i quite quiet and worry that my degree will be the same with my foundation that i wouldn't know even 1 of the classmate in the class...starting from 2nd week, i knew many new friends here-- kelly, yan lin, see min, yanQ, vicky bla bla bla... sooner or later we all had become a gang (most gila gang in the class)...anyway, i had a lot of fun and happy time with them,thankx alot... 

luckily this sem only have 2 assignments and 2 presentations, not so busy with those stuff....but what i busy in this sem is the MIDTERM!!! wuwu~i had midterms for around 5 weeks already for each saturday, sometimes 2 or 3 tests in 1 day, really energy exhausted with that...midterms already spend half of the sem...although midterms already passed, but there is another challenge coming to me-- final exam in less than 1 month...haiz...

evidence for hard study

among both assignments, i think i enjoy more in doing the managment assignment and presentation, quite a successful presentation that day too...happy~

yanQ best shot to snap all~

let's get which heels is whose!!!

last week is vicky's birthday and we had celebrate for it yesterday in Big A...i think vicky really surprise with that since it's over almost 1 week already...overall, i can just say there are 6 siao po (gila perempuan) shout with mic that day~lol

happy birthday sweety vicky~