what happen to me?

am i good enough? am i feeling too proud with my own self? am i always want to win and be the top? am i unhappy that someone has pulling me down? am i too stress to my own? is my 'face' too thin? or m i really not that good? am i???
i don't know what happen to me, but i know this is my weakness. Maybe not everyone can realise it but some close friends or people who care me. Although i know they wish to help me but sorry, i am the one don't know how to express myself, my feeling, anything. i never want people to know what am i really thinking deeply inside or even hide them if i can. i think all of them never expect that i am a person like this. sometimes i hate myself also. care about all the things i did especially something with my abilities, is it my fault?

tired week

my econ presentation group...

I am very tired after last week maybe is because of the assignments (econ and talk show).The day after econ presentation, we only start our preparation, draw the mahjong paper and so on...since we get the question on saturday before and we have to present it on tuesday, some more we don't really know about the question, IT"S REALLY HARD!!! it's about GDP, the subject i don't really understand...haiz...but luckily we can finish it by getting information from min zhi's auntie and his mum...what a big project...haha...the day when presentation, actually we all plan to 'plagiarise' some lecturer's and tutor's ways to teach to present our topic, but unfortunately seems that everyone is 'brain freezed' , so that we don't do like that, if not, the situation will be 'cold'...haiz...but luckily our presentation can end 'in peace'...

my talk show group...i am looking so weird there...

kar sin is missing there because sick already...

With the special attire of tung yen and kar sin, we get a 41/50...is it can be considered as a good result or not?since it cannot hit our target...anyway, it's good enough already and our efforts are not wasted because we really did a lot for that. Luckily, I din't spoil the show...

I was informed to get the scholarship on last Sunday from the temple association at 9am. So that day, i wake up early in the morning just to get my 'fruit' of my result. After having breakfast, i went to the hall on time because I think that the scholarship will be distributed from SPM to UPSR but then it's from UPSR to SPM...wuwu~i had waited long time about 2 hours there...if i know will be like that, I will sleep enough then only go for that. I get RM100 for it which means each A in my result is only worth for RM10...wuwu~ so cheap...but better than nothing la...xexe...

finally

Finally, the mid term is finished.Again, i don't have confidence the most in eng paper...Anyway, it's a good news to finish the mid term test but there is also a bad news, i have to continue doing assignments again (econ presentation, talk show computer studies presentation and english grammar presentation)... Really, as what Mr Nawin say before, after week 3 we will be pressured especially assignments...it's true...so many assignments are waiting for me...I think next sem will be more assignments...wuwu~

Yesterday, I get a form on my table, that is scholarship form offered by persatuan Cheng Ying Lian Hua, the requirement is my parents have to be the member lukily my dad is the one...haha...Then, my friend told my that "Pei Yuan Senior Club" gt offer scholarship also.Today, my sister get the form for me already.OMG! pareants have to be the member again but my pareants didn't enter as member...now i am looking for my friend's parents or relatives to write their name as my guardian in the form so that it can offer me...some more i can get extra money because of getting A in bahasa cina...(it's a chance to 'earn' money using my result, haha...)