SHIT UTAR!!!

yesterday is the 1st day of registration period for FBF students...starting from 1pm...
why?why?why? why FBF is the last faculty to register? and all faculty share the same timetable!!!
it's unfair for us...faculty before us at least can get a place for the subjects they suppose to study next sem at last minute, but what about us?!!
if we can register in the 1st 5 minutes, the slot maybe unavailable already...what even happen for those can't log in and register???

that day, after i know that the places are getting lesser and lesser, my mood drop till underground~
1st, i can't be along with my friends already, not even 1...
2nd, i have to choose what subjects to take since the all classes are unavailable...
3rd, i have to rearrange the time again and again...

being 1 of those unluckies, i have to reverse all my course structure to take Y2S2 subjects...after i decided to do so, i found 1 problem again, 1 subject from that is unavailable already...so i went back to the Y1S2 subject and found 1 subject is still available...finally, i go for a mix and match--1 subject of Y1S2 (emotional intelligence) and 2 subjects from Y2S2 (business ethnics and strategic financial management ).

another problem for me again, should i add 1 subject more from Y2S3 subject? since many of my friends also choose to add pengajian malaysia to become 4 subjects... they can follow the course stucture and all those 4 subjects' results are not counted in CGPA--either pass/fail only.jealous~
but for me, all subjects i take are not so familiar to me and 2 of them are counted in CGPA, so i worry that i can't cover so much...and, if i want to add pengajian malaysia also useless, full also...at the end, i decided to take 4 subjects in Y2S2--just reverse with my friends.lol

in conclusion, the thing i hate the most in UTAR is the online registration for timetable...
1st, not easy to enter the page...
2nd, wasting our time for keep refreshing the stupid page...
3rd, not easy to get the course you want...
4th, not easy to get the slot you want...
5th, not easy to arrange the timetable--(slot clash here and there)...

is flexi timetable a good idea???i don't think so...i rather to have fixed timetable and classmates every sem, at least no need for me to scratch my head again and again...

自卑

最近我发觉我开始不太喜欢到购物商场去了。。。不知道是我自卑心作祟还是什么。。。

每次我到那里去，总觉得那些女孩都穿得比我漂亮，身材比我好，化妆都化的很美。。。即使那些只是十四十五岁的小妹妹，心里就不禁有些自卑了。

当和林去看半夜场电影时，这些感觉就更加厉害了。你们都知道电影院里出现的男女都打扮得很漂亮，穿洋装、高跟鞋、小可爱、化妆什么的。当他们用异样的眼光看我的时候，我就会心想：是我穿得太难看吗？是我太胖太丑吗？（还是我想太多）当林遇见他的朋友的时候，有时我也会很不好意思，可能觉得我会让他很没面子吧！

自从上大学之后，我就越来越胖了。。。我也不想啊！
每个学期都辛苦得要命，lectures, tutorials, assignments, presentations...有时不明白还要double lecture或tutorial...每课的时间都不定，害我三餐都不定时。。。我的食量比起那些瘦得要命的女生来的还小，我这样还会胖，还有天理吗？如果叫我运动的话，我忙得连睡的时间都不够啊~还叫我运动！有时间我倒不如补眠--补回考试失去的珍贵睡眠时间。你们可以说那些都是我的借口,也可以说我懒。。。

可能是因为我觉得我的外壳不够好，所以都会尽量用其他东西补救。。。
我会时常问他：我对你好吗？你给我几分？
可能在我的内心，总觉得对不起他吧。在我们认识的那段时间，虽然我称不上大美女但也不比现在差吧，至少是比现在来得瘦。

我也会问自己：我的优点是什么？我总找不出答案。
是成绩好吗？除此我找不出任何答案。但是谁会认为这是当女朋友的优点啊！（可能是比别人胖吧，可以当枕头）

直到现在，成绩好是我唯一胜人之处所以我会尽全力做到最好。。。之前，有朋友问我，为什么你成绩这么好？如果我能像你就好了！
那我现在应该能给他这么一个答案了，我看她现在应该没那么羡慕我了吧。。。

不过，我已经决定了，要减肥！要明年过年前把自己变回以前的样子，不管成不成功，我都尽力而为，至少尝试了。加油！

degree 1st sem

this is the 1st sem of degree i have been in UTAR...in the 1st week, i quite quiet and worry that my degree will be the same with my foundation that i wouldn't know even 1 of the classmate in the class...starting from 2nd week, i knew many new friends here-- kelly, yan lin, see min, yanQ, vicky bla bla bla... sooner or later we all had become a gang (most gila gang in the class)...anyway, i had a lot of fun and happy time with them,thankx alot... 

luckily this sem only have 2 assignments and 2 presentations, not so busy with those stuff....but what i busy in this sem is the MIDTERM!!! wuwu~i had midterms for around 5 weeks already for each saturday, sometimes 2 or 3 tests in 1 day, really energy exhausted with that...midterms already spend half of the sem...although midterms already passed, but there is another challenge coming to me-- final exam in less than 1 month...haiz...

evidence for hard study

among both assignments, i think i enjoy more in doing the managment assignment and presentation, quite a successful presentation that day too...happy~

yanQ best shot to snap all~

let's get which heels is whose!!!

last week is vicky's birthday and we had celebrate for it yesterday in Big A...i think vicky really surprise with that since it's over almost 1 week already...overall, i can just say there are 6 siao po (gila perempuan) shout with mic that day~lol

happy birthday sweety vicky~

last sem break in foundation II

suddenly i found that i had left something important here--my foundation final result, that is what i gambateh for in the whole year...

this is my final result-- 3.8143...satisfying!!! xexe...

for this result, i can only receive half scholarship and make sure to maintain 3.5 and above (gt staff says to maintain 3.0 only, but i always believe the worst answer )...i think it's hard to maintain and Utar only offer me half of the fees if i can maintain it, not worth!

i sent an email to ptptn website since there is a rumour says that students that achieve 1st class result no need to pay back the ptptn...they reply me as follow:

"Dasar Perbadanan telah menetapkan pengecualian daripada membayar balik pinjaman hanya boleh dipertimbangkan kepada peminjam yang mendapat kelulusan Kelas Pertama Peringkat Ijazah Sarjana Muda bagi kelulusan pinjaman sebelum 1 Julai 2005 SAHAJA. Melalui Bajet 2010 pertimbangan juga diberikan kepada pelajar yang mendapat kelulusan Ijazah Sarjana Muda Kepujian Kelas Pertama yang bergraduat mulai tahun 2010 dan ke atas.

Sekian, terima kasih."

but there is still something i don't know, that is the result they meant is foundation result? or every sem's result in degree? anyway, that worth more because if my result can't achieve 1st class, i still able to pay back the loan because the interest is low. And, i think the 1st class level government state will be lower than UTAR, want to earn UTAR money is really hard...haiz....

yesterday, i went to UTAR admin and asked for my student bill. the staff said they haven't finished settle all the student bills and i am under scholarship so i can only collect it next week...so "efficient"~ they also told me that if i don't want my scholarship, just don't bother the acceptance letter and UTAR will send me a new student bill before the due date...just now, my friend told me that we can only collect our timetable after making payment...but, for the UTAR "efficient" level, i am sure they will send me the bill late...then i will get the timetable late lo? how do i attend classes? haiz...many questions in my head....nevermind la, just wait till next mon register and take the bill then see how la...

this 2 weeks, i had nothing to do...just went ipoh shopping with my friend and yumcha only...what a boring life~ but this is better if exam...haha...overall, in this 1-month sem break, i had wasted it and didn't go anywhere. not like most of my friends, go genting, melaka, singapora, penang....jealous~ but, i promised with my friend that we will had a trip together during next sem break...for the form 6 friends, maybe we will go genting after their mid-year exam la...see whether how they plan la...

confuse and nervous...

few days before, i realised that many people had posted many comments about the degree programme semester. most of the people don't know what to do after received the offer letter and some even haven't received the letter. there are onli about 1 week left to start to registeration, after the registeration, i am gonna start the course that i have choosen, can't change anymore...

recently, i am wondering to change my course to 4-years programme and continue thinking many things that make me feel nervous and even lost direction...gary had discussed this matter with me, he is thinking in the same way with me...

yesterday, i had confirmed everything. i went to UTAR asked about the course contents. For my information, there is another kolej famous for accounting-- shen jai commerce kolej, so i went to asked about it also. its tuition fee together with my living expenses in ipoh is really much more cheaper than UTAR although i did not include any living expenses in kampar. actually, you all can consider me as 'anak manja'(the word gary used to me since i never leave my home alone), this is the result that my dad so sayang me till this level lo...it's a kind of hapiness also...xexe...

after my deep consideration and my dad's hope me to stay in kampar, i decided to continue my 3-years programme in UTAR and continue my last 5 ACCA papers in shen jai kolej...haha...what a beautiful mix and match!

last sem break in foundation I

after i finished my last sem in foundation, i have learnt something...

people is selfish, individual...maybe i think too much or maybe that is my fault so that they treat me like this...

anyway, i know that it is hard to have a real friend nowadays especially after i left my secondary school...this is a materialistic society...

in this sem break, not too long or too short---only 1 month. after i finished the final exam...i slept all the time...replace back the sleeping hours i have lost because of studying for that 2 subjects...haha...

nothing special i have done in the sem break, sometimes watching taiwan drama...sometimes doing mask...sometimes watching movie in cinema...sometimes accompany my family shopping in ipoh...sometimes yamcha with friends...sometimes sing k with friends...i am nearly to finish watching almost all the movie in the cinema, iron man 2 la...ice kacang puppy love la...IP man 2 la...somehow, i feel sienz la...haiz...

on mother's day, we have celebrated in ipoh...that day, we have watched "IP man 2" and shopping for a while in Jusco until about 7pm...after that, we planned to go for dinner in oversea restaurant since my dad recommended the roasted pork there. unfortunately, that day is mother's day so although it is expensive to have dinner there but still, there is full...

then, we went to 艺食阁 to have stimboat, but haiz...again, full...we changed our plan to have western food for dinner...so we went to Oplace...

luckily, there is still available and we found a table...haha...so happy...cause we went to many places already, tired and sienz and mood also not so good already...i like the surrounding there because it gives me a peace and relax feeling...its design just like a little warm house...like it~><. there are many food choices, got western...japanese...korean...mee and so on...

the waiter already reminded us that we have to wait at least 45 minutes...but we decided to wait rather than changing place here and there since that is mother's day and most of the nice places are full.(except mamak stall,haha...) while waiting, i snap pictures to release my boring-ness...

drinks~

my sis and dad~

my dad and i~

my mum and i~

my shot shot sis~

dumpling came 1st~

curry mee my mum ordered~

my dad's special nasi lemak~

my sis's chicken chop~

finally, my unagi+kenasagi food box~yummy~

the day after that, we went to ipoh again to oversea restaurant and tried the roasted pork and the cha siew...really nice~xexe...

until now, only 2 weeks left for my sem break...time flies, feel sad, sob sob.....really want my sem break to be fun and unforgetable...to be continue...

失望

失望，是一种不太好受的滋味。。。
不能说成伤心，更不能说是悲愤，
只能说它是一种希望被幻灭后的心情。。。

我们总是会为了那一个小小的愿望而筹备，等待甚至期盼。。。
还不时会幻想愿望实现的那一刻而偷偷扬起嘴角。。。

时间慢慢的走，总是会有来临的时候，
当事与愿违时，听到的与心里的相反时，
满怀期待的心情，就瞬间被那一字一句把心情跌落谷底。。。

失望的程度就依之前所设在心里的希望了，
希望越大，失望越大。。。

我相信很多女生都一样，
当失望时，心里总是会有不舒服的感觉吧，
有时眼泪还会不受控制的留了下来。。。
为了不让别人或他看见而愧疚难过，
只好说“没关系啦，不用紧的。。。”
其实心里在意得不得了。。。

别看小失望哦。。。
多次的失望可能会造成日后的不信任，甚至会对别人失去信心。。。
如果可以的活，就请别让她/他失望吧！