holiday

These two days, i feel a bit boring and tired. Maybe i can't stay for late night starting now because i felt a bit painful on my chest yesterday when i was writting the blog, so i have to be more becareful already.(if not, i will die very fast,haha...)anyway, sleeping late is not a good habit.

i think in this holiday, the food i always eat as breakfats is the 'lao shu fen'. you must think of why i always eat that since there are various food in kampar available, the reason is: everyday my mum goes to the market early in the morning and i haven't wake up that time, so she will buy me a breakfast, then she will go to my dad's factory to give him a hand. So when i wake up, i have to heat them up again. Every night when she will ask me what i want to have as breakfast tommorrow, i also don't know how to answer her, just say whatever la, haha...then she just buy 'lao shu fen', because only that stall will open everyday and the others will rest one day per week(anyday), so what if i say want to eat that particular food and that stall off?

the 'lao shu fen' i eat everyday...sienz...

haiz...if u ask me what have i done this holiday, my answer will be: eat, sleep, watch movie/tv show, online (can go shopping if lucky). it;s just the same like a pig, haha...i had watched some tvb show: 古灵侦探B, 强剑...this is the only way to fill up my sparetime.

there is only about 1 week time left in my holiday, what else can i do? i never want my holiday finish so fast, i don't want to start the new sem so fast, i don't want to face the exam again...wuwu~ but this is the truth i have to face it.

给你的一番话

我之前不是太了解你，也很少跟你谈天，就算有也只是‘一句起两句止’。经过差不多一年没一起，我总觉得你变了。。。觉得你变得有点把保护自己的墙壁给砌厚了，比起以前天真烂漫的你差好多。。。

不知道这一年之内你身边到底发生了什么事，还是面对了什么不愉快的事，我想应该是这些事改变了你。这段时期，我也对你的事略有所闻，知道你进入了一个行业也很努力地考取了执照，同时也经常对这事忙东忙西的，到处参加课程等。。。在这之前我也知道你有一段不太愉快的感情，虽然不太了解事情的来龙去脉，不过我想你多多少少都会受到一些伤害。

经过那一天，我对你的感觉就是难以亲近，说话变得聪明了，可能是因为你进修了那行业的课程。你总是能问出别人的事而当别人问起你的时候，你就不让他知道，把自己的事收得紧紧的，然后很婉转的把话题移开，十足在打太极一样。（厉害！）当我跟你聊天的时候，我不觉得我们像朋友在谈天，像被你访问的感觉，只有你问我答。有时你还蛮会挖苦人家的，因而人家就会觉得你不太容易亲近，也可能不太喜欢跟你讲话。偶尔挖苦朋友可能会是种乐趣，不过你呢就是十句有四句都是挖苦别人的话，造成别人对你的反感，这可不是件好事啊！

对于你这些特色，可能对你的兼职不会有所帮助因为你的顾客可能会觉得有点压力，因为当你有特定目的而面对某人时，你的目的根本就是写在脸上，每个问题都是针对那目的的，也不太会开玩笑。我想如果身为你的顾客，他们会希望你把他们当作朋友，有说有笑。。。

可能这些东西你都不会发觉因为它们都会很自然的表露出来，所以当我说你比较保护自己的时候，你就说‘我没有在隐藏任何事’。

#这些只是我对你的一番真心话，可能会不太好听但是这都是出自我的一番真心，如有得罪的地方，希望你不要生气。。。（对不起！）

shopping day...

Today, i have date with my fren, bee kei to go for shopping in parade. Because of some reason, our plan have to be postponed to 12pm. This is the first time i took the bus with auntie to collect the money from us (normally will be man), she is so 'fierce'. When the 2 foreign workers paid her a RM1 because of not having RM0.20(i don't know whether they have but don't know what the auntie saying or what happened), the malay auntie scolded them with the word 'bodoh', thinking of they don't know they don't understand.When we reached ipoh parade, it's already about 2pm. Somehow we have chit-chatting a lot in the bus, but bee kei seem to be impatient to reach there.Before this, she said 'no winter shopping is allowed', so i think she is too eager to shopping, haha...

We planned to start our shopping from the ground floor, we had eaten ice-cream there. I had bought a tshirt from voir, a cut-in from F.O.S, a shirt from hip-hop zone. After that, we were tired so we decided to take a meal at the food court with sizzling mee and iced lemon tea at about 4 something. Then , we moved on to the back part of parade--parkson. I had bought a tshirt for my loving dad and a shirt for my honey from 'forest', actually i don't have enough money already so i borrewed rm30 from bee kei to pay it.

Since i am waiting my honey to come and fetch me, i have to wait until about 6 something. I saw a book fair and i am not so 'fren with books but bee kei like reading so she just stand there and starting to read her book and some mind test (if not, she so noisy want to back), so i did't disturb her, i just find a bench to sit (can be said rest my legs because bee kei never let me rest or sit went shopping, don't shopping be relax and comfortable?!haiz...)When she came and find me, we continue to walk to the floor below. Suddenly, i saw a bag i am looking for quite a time but i can't buy it because of the 'drying' of my purse, haiz...

At that time, bee kei was calling oneFM to participate a contest because she already know the answer for the question asked (What activity people spend almost 5 months in a life?), knowing the prize of the contest had already accumulated to RM5000, i also helped her to call in. Finally, she had called-in to oneFM but the guy said the answering section had over, asked her to call-in again tomorrow at 6pm. Then, we sat on a bench and start chit-chatting again...

Finally, my honey and his friend had came but by seeing bee kei's expression, i know she already 'beh song' (sorry ya~because they are in traffic jam, really.) Then, we 4 going to eat the famous food in ipoh (i think you all know wat food am i talking is). After that, we just went back to kampar since don't know why bee kei is impatient to return home. After i took bath, my sis, my honey's fren, my honey and i went to KFC to have some snacks (cheezy wedges and fun fries). Again, chit-chatting till about 10.30pm then we just return home. However, i am still happy today because of buying many 'leng leng' shirt.

mid-autumn

The mid-autumn for this year abit special for me...that day, i am damn boring since i am in sem break and have nothing to do. Luckily, that day is my fren, xin yi's birthday, so i went out to buy a present for her, by sharing with my high school frens. By that, i wouldn't be so boring till 'mushrooms' are grown on my head. That time, my sis boring also, so i bring her to mu aunt's house since she is so 'fren' with my cousin. Then, i went to look for xin yi's present, thinking of maybe i can buy some clothes, xexe...I bought a purse 'accidentally', but the real accident is i never check my purse before, when i open it, it has only rm20 in all rm1, haha....luckily still enough to pay for that purse, if not, really 'FISH'!!!

the purse i bought 'accidentally', it's really nice but i am a bit worry because it's white in colour, scare will be dirty easily, have to take care of it carefully...

Then, i went back home to 'refill' my purse, by rm150 saving in the drawer and continue my mission. I found a cute big bear in my mum's fren shop, i think it will be a good birthday present for xin yi, so I bought it...Actually, i am planning to sing k to celebrate with her at night but unfortunately, swee yee and heong not free, so we just give xin yi a present...

xin yi's birthday present from us (wen fei, lo, chai, heong, lune, kayu, swee yee and i)

Later, i go to fetch my sis back from aunt's home and my aunt invite us to have dinner at their house. Then, i went back to take a bath and facebook-ing awhile then only go to aunt's house with my mum since my dad also have to go for a wedding dinner. Actually, i am dislike my aunt's dishes because they're so plain...

After a while, all of us and aunt's neighbours sit together and eat something after the grandma pray to the moon such as mooncake, peanut, fruits, jelly mooncake.....Suddenly, my dad gave me a call that he had finished the dinner and bought some fried chicken wings and crabs, so my mum ask him to bring along to here. Then, when i put them on the table, all the auntie said 'don't want, don't want', but then all finished there, haha...(they can be said as my family real meal, not like my aunt's dishes and i ate not much, xexe...)

My cousins, my sis and i chit-chatting until 11pm, then i just went home with my mum since my sis said want to stay overnight at my aunt's home to sleep with my cousin. That's how my mid-autumn this year, although nothing special, but can be said happy also...

what happen to me?

am i good enough? am i feeling too proud with my own self? am i always want to win and be the top? am i unhappy that someone has pulling me down? am i too stress to my own? is my 'face' too thin? or m i really not that good? am i???
i don't know what happen to me, but i know this is my weakness. Maybe not everyone can realise it but some close friends or people who care me. Although i know they wish to help me but sorry, i am the one don't know how to express myself, my feeling, anything. i never want people to know what am i really thinking deeply inside or even hide them if i can. i think all of them never expect that i am a person like this. sometimes i hate myself also. care about all the things i did especially something with my abilities, is it my fault?

tired week

my econ presentation group...

I am very tired after last week maybe is because of the assignments (econ and talk show).The day after econ presentation, we only start our preparation, draw the mahjong paper and so on...since we get the question on saturday before and we have to present it on tuesday, some more we don't really know about the question, IT"S REALLY HARD!!! it's about GDP, the subject i don't really understand...haiz...but luckily we can finish it by getting information from min zhi's auntie and his mum...what a big project...haha...the day when presentation, actually we all plan to 'plagiarise' some lecturer's and tutor's ways to teach to present our topic, but unfortunately seems that everyone is 'brain freezed' , so that we don't do like that, if not, the situation will be 'cold'...haiz...but luckily our presentation can end 'in peace'...

my talk show group...i am looking so weird there...

kar sin is missing there because sick already...

With the special attire of tung yen and kar sin, we get a 41/50...is it can be considered as a good result or not?since it cannot hit our target...anyway, it's good enough already and our efforts are not wasted because we really did a lot for that. Luckily, I din't spoil the show...

I was informed to get the scholarship on last Sunday from the temple association at 9am. So that day, i wake up early in the morning just to get my 'fruit' of my result. After having breakfast, i went to the hall on time because I think that the scholarship will be distributed from SPM to UPSR but then it's from UPSR to SPM...wuwu~i had waited long time about 2 hours there...if i know will be like that, I will sleep enough then only go for that. I get RM100 for it which means each A in my result is only worth for RM10...wuwu~ so cheap...but better than nothing la...xexe...

finally

Finally, the mid term is finished.Again, i don't have confidence the most in eng paper...Anyway, it's a good news to finish the mid term test but there is also a bad news, i have to continue doing assignments again (econ presentation, talk show computer studies presentation and english grammar presentation)... Really, as what Mr Nawin say before, after week 3 we will be pressured especially assignments...it's true...so many assignments are waiting for me...I think next sem will be more assignments...wuwu~

Yesterday, I get a form on my table, that is scholarship form offered by persatuan Cheng Ying Lian Hua, the requirement is my parents have to be the member lukily my dad is the one...haha...Then, my friend told my that "Pei Yuan Senior Club" gt offer scholarship also.Today, my sister get the form for me already.OMG! pareants have to be the member again but my pareants didn't enter as member...now i am looking for my friend's parents or relatives to write their name as my guardian in the form so that it can offer me...some more i can get extra money because of getting A in bahasa cina...(it's a chance to 'earn' money using my result, haha...)