Crystal Clear

总是这样

2012-01-25T21:14:00.000-08:00

老公，其实每次你说起工厂的事给我听、和我分享的时候。。。
我总是会有两种反应。。。

一，不断说出解决的方法，还越说越激动，越说越大声。。。
弄到你也回驳我，像骂架一样。。。
其实我也不想的，一听到你有困境就只想把你解决。。。
听到你被人欺负，心里就很不忿，很想帮你教训他们。。。
不知不觉就激动起来了。。。
但是我也不想kacao到你，免得影响你生意还是所谓的兄弟情。。。
毕竟像我爸爸说的，男生的事女生不要管。。。（很大男人吧）
所以我也不会采取什么行动。。。

二，就是闷着闷着不开心。。。
你就会说：你总是这样，什么都不说。。。
可能我想不到任何方法，觉得帮不上忙。。。是个笨蛋。。。
或者就单纯的心疼。。。
心疼老公被欺负。。。
心疼老公没吃饭。。。
心疼老公迟下班。。。
心疼老公遇到麻烦客。。。
心疼老公被骂。。。
心疼老公（想事情）没睡觉。。。
心疼老公头疼。。。
心疼老公肌肉疼。。。
心疼老公因为这样病倒了。。。
想着想着，眼泪就会掉下来了。。。

不开心

2012-01-25T20:55:00.000-08:00

不开心，突然想去海边。。。
MSN被人盗用了。。。
一直用我的户口和我的朋友说些有的没有的。。。
幸好被我发现了。。。

看到老公的工厂变得一塌糊涂。。。根本就没心情了。。。
是因为爸爸要他搬过来不好吗？我也不知道。。。
眼看别人把生意都抢走了，感觉就像把老公的心血都倒掉似的。。。
好心痛、好想哭哦~T.T
老公把过去一年多的时间，心力，劳力都奉献给工厂。。。
这简直就是老公亲手打回来的江山嘛。。。
结果呢？
被人欺负、被人骗、生意被人一声谢谢都没有就抢走了~

从一开始一个人、一间没有人知道的工厂、默默地慢慢的把生意做起来。。。
做到现在这么多人认识，别人一句也没有就用了你的招牌名。。。
根本就是帮了他们开路嘛。。。
外面认识的是你，他们做衰了也是你的名，赚的钱一仙都不是你的。。。
干嘛一直让人占便宜？！你又不是等他们开饭！
应该说你笨吗？

我也不知道现在的心情是怎样。。。
好复杂哦~
有帮不到什么。。。
呜呜~

Y2S1 sem break

2011-10-08T13:30:00.000-07:00

这个假期过得好无聊哦。。。
所有考试前计划要做的东西都没完成。。。
我计划了些什么呢？嗯。。。让我想想。。。
血拼、减肥、洗脸、买货。。。总之要过个精彩的假期。。。

但是。。。事实总是事与愿违。。。
一放假，我就替我小小的店进些新货，免得开学后客人进来说‘又是这些’
回来第二天，我就病了，发烧、喉咙痛。。。
放假竟然病了，真不是滋味。。。还病了超过一个星期T.T
因为喉咙疼，所以没什么胃口，那一个多星期就吃得很少，就当减肥咯。。。
早上一碗老鼠粉，晚上一碗稀粥。。。

现在病好了，就什么都想吃了。。。
KFC, MCD, 杂菜饭，maggie goreng,总之之前不能吃的统统都想吃。。。
我已经尽量控制自己了，不能让过去一个星期的功夫前功尽弃。。。
真不公平，别的女生吃的比我还多，怎么都不会胖啊。。。真气!!!

下个星期就考MUET speaking了，真担心。。。
希望topic比较容易吧。。。
希望到时我不会没point讲吧。。。
希望不会和厉害的人同组吧。。。
希望我不会到时'kick'在一半吧。。。
我还真多'希望'，(嘻嘻)
我不是追求band 5, 只要band 3, 能pass 就好。。。

至于血拼嘛，上星期我妹，堂妹和我上了一趟KL。。。
本来我也不怎么想去，病了嘛，加上去的火车票也贵，KL吃东西也贵。。。
因为我妹超想去那血拼买衣服的，又不会路。。。
他就请我带路，代价是付我火车票和在那的餐点，(哈哈,我还蛮过分的~)
那天，我也没买到什么衣服。。。
只是买了些下个sem 会用到的formal。。。
formal shirt 啊，高跟鞋啊，书包啊，和一个休闲包包罢了。。。
如果我真的疯狂血拼起来，我买的一定不止这里。。。
算吧，因为times square卖的衣服虽然便宜，但是都小小件又NO TRYING!!!
我这么大一只，怎么穿得下嘛。。。加上也没什么钱，所以看过就算咯~

前天我去洗脸了。。。
很便宜哦，RM60 而已。。。(50% discount嘛，还送RM50 cash voucher)
考试前我就一直想去了，因为我的护肤品都用完了，想说洗脸就顺便一起买咯。。。
因为这样，我的脸就变得超级干。。。(还脱皮咯，痛死了)
我就买了一个修复爽肤水和一支保湿精华。。。
好贵哦，RM220 + RM178=RM398 + RM60(facial)= RM458 (-RM8)-->RM450
因为不够钱，我也认识老板娘，所以可以下次还，所以现在我还欠债RM250。。。T.T
怎么洗个脸就用了这么多钱啊。。。
因为我的皮肤干到受伤了所以我才舍得下重本的。。。不过我相信这些产品可以让我的皮肤比较好的。。。值得的。。。^ ^

这些就是我这个假期做过的事，蛮无聊的吧。。。
希望最后一个星期会有一些精彩的事吧。。。

Y2s1

2011-09-26T22:29:00.000-07:00

这个学期发生了很多事。。。

朋友。。。

撞车。。。(撞三只水牛,厉害吧!!!)

学会去都市。。。

现在正是珍贵的放假期阿。。。得好好珍惜~

想起这学期我拿的科目，真是难啊~

加上我越来越懒，越来越不想读书，越来越觉得成绩不重要，就更加难读了。。。哎~

不过都过了，现在要面对的是MUET。。。

我英文本来就不是很好了，还要我考MUET，真怕会拿band 2重考。。。

怕怕~

我发觉我真的越来越肥了。。。

足足胖了两个尺寸，惨了~

所以我已下定决心要减肥了。。。、

希望能在新年的时候美美的。。。

希望能买衣服的时候不用担心穿不穿的下。。。

现在这些都是期望而已。。。

能实现当然是最好啦。。。

现在胖了的我超没信心、超自卑的。。。

看见街上的美女们都瘦瘦、漂漂亮亮的。。。

真羡慕~

真希望我会变成那样。。。

加油!!!

第一次

2011-08-25T22:44:00.000-07:00

我第一次吃mcd。。。（之后就上瘾了~要克制，不要吃这么多了）
我第一次喝starbuck coffee。。。（真贵!）
我第一次去pub。。。(我还记得是Rum Junggle!!!)
我第一次出去喝酒。。。(在pub喝红酒，真好笑!!!)
我第一次看半夜场。。。(真累，看完都夜深人静了~)
我第一次看3D电影。。。(我记得是Toy story, 还是临时换票的!!!)
我第一次拍大头照。。。(到现在我还留着哦!!!那应该是我最好看的大头照吧!!!)
我第一次吃碌碌。。。(本来我还蛮抗拒的，之后觉得还蛮好吃的，嘻嘻。。。)
我第一次去Times Square & KLCC。。。(走到我脚很酸哦~)
我第一次去高级的喜宴。。。(每桌都有专属的侍应哦，夹菜都不用自己动手，真豪华!!!)
我第一次不在金宝的生日。。。(去langat山吃扒哦~)
我第一次去金宝以外的夜市。。。(那时不知为什么去到上瘾了@.@)
我第一次打扫别人的房间。。。(真脏!!!)
。。。
还有很多哦，不过暂时还记不起。。。嘻嘻。。。

原来我很多的第一次都给你了哦。。。^ ^

Y2S1

2011-08-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

this sem seems try to demotivate everyone...eveyone agree with this, don't know why....
maybe because many theory-based subject? or those subjects are hard? or already entered Y2???
i admit that in this sem, i did not pay attention in classes, never focus on study...
why? i don't know, because i opened a shop? no mood?

but obviously, my intention to fight for my result is gone....
maybe i pretty understand that, "good result does not mean anything!!!" and the sentence really affect on me is that---- "certificate is just a ticket for you to enter a company, what i want to employ is you, not the certificate!!!" said by a HR manager....BRAVO!!! like this sentence much, and this is the truth....so guys, don't stress yourself for studying, even if you get 4.0, it does not mean that you are the best employee in the company....

but say honestly, this sem subjects are damn hard!!!!
as what i know, we are taking 3 ACCA papers.....IN 1 SEM!!! wakao!!!!
Auditing, AFA and Performance Management!!!! (the sequence is hardest, very hard and hard, LOL)

i had just finished the midterm for PM, AFA, BF and Audit.....
PM and Audit's are MCQ, but just tembak, using my sixth sense...(seldom be acurate also, LOL)
AFA is structure, OMG!!! 25 marks gone, ncy tried to make a trap, all the same with tutorial but the just the method different, that method never taught in class!!! and i never realise that, it makes much difference with that last 3 words on the question....T.T
BF ah, i studied, and i know how to use that calculator, but calculation part still can be wrong, what happen? stupid!!!
still, last paper is witing for me next week, company law!!!!
anyway, i had already expect my result to drop much from 3.8 to 3.5 even 3.2....sei lo~

this sem also taught me something in the reality....
but don't mention here la, as this is my private lifestyle....xexe ^ ^

My Humps

2011-07-05T00:08:00.000-07:00

"My Humps"

What you gon' do with all that junk?
All that junk inside your trunk?

I'ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,

My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely little lumps (Check it out)

I drive these brothers crazy,

I do it on the daily,

They treat me really nicely,

They buy me all these ices.

Dolce & Gabbana,

Fendi and that Donna

Karan, they be sharin'

All their money got me wearin' fly

Brother I ain't askin,

They say they love my ass ‘n,

Seven Jeans, True Religion's,

I say no, but they keep givin'

So I keep on takin'

And no I ain't taken

We can keep on datin'

I keep on demonstrating.

My love (love), my love, my love, my love (love)

You love my lady lumps (love),

My hump, my hump, my hump (love),

My humps they got you,

She's got me spending.

(Oh) Spendin' all your money on me and spending time on me.

She's got me spendin'.

(Oh) Spendin' all your money on me, up on me, on me

What you gon' do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I'ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

What you gon' do with all that ass?

All that ass inside them jeans?

I'm a make, make, make, make you scream

Make you scream, make you scream.

Cos of my hump (ha), my hump, my hump, my hump (what).

My hump, my hump, my hump (ha), my lovely lady lumps (Check it out)

I met a girl down at the disco.

She said hey, hey, hey yea let's go.

I could be your baby, you can be my honey

Let's spend time not money.

I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,

Milky, milky cocoa,

Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.

They say I'm really sexy,

The boys they wanna sex me.

They always standing next to me,

Always dancing next to me,

Tryin' a feel my hump, hump.

Lookin' at my lump, lump.

You can look but you can't touch it,

If you touch it I'ma start some drama,

You don't want no drama,

No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama

So don't pull on my hand boy,

You ain't my man, boy,

I'm just tryn'a dance boy,

And move my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.

My lovely lady lumps (lumps)

In the back and in the front (lumps)

My lovin' got you,

She's got me spendin'.

(Oh) Spendin' all your money on me and spending time on me.

She's got me spendin'.

(Oh) Spendin' all your money on me, up on me, on me.

What you gon' do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I'ma get, get, get, get you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

What you gon' do with all that ass?

All that ass inside them jeans?

I'ma make, make, make, make you scream

Make you scream, make you scream.

What you gon' do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I'ma get, get, get, get you drunk,

Get you love drunk off this hump.

What you gon' do wit all that breast?

All that breast inside that shirt?

I'ma make, make, make, make you work

Make you work, work, make you work.

(A-ha, a-ha, a-ha, a-ha) [x4]

She's got me spendin'.

(Oh) Spendin' all your money on me and spendin' time on me

She's got me spendin'.

(Oh) Spendin' all your money on me, up on me, on me.

中招了!!!

2011-06-14T00:55:00.000-07:00

我中招了!!!

我出水痘了!!!

今天大概是第四第五天吧。。。

都是妈传染给我的。。。

呜呜~

脸，手臂，胸，背，甚至头顶都有。。。

不过最多还是背部。。。

有几粒还很大粒，很丑很恐怖啊!!!

自己看到摸到也顶不顺。。。>.<

不过比起我妈和妹，

我又没发烧，没全身骨痛，又没出这么多。。。

已经很好了~

可能我平时有喝够水的关系吧。。。

嘻嘻~

我看我最快都要下星期才能上课。。。

被逼旷课一个礼拜。。。

我是被逼的!!!LOL

总之，

我只想快点痊愈，快点上课，

免得矿太多课，

跟不上。。。

想不到我还蛮勤力的嘛，

哈哈。。。

1st week

2011-06-10T08:23:00.000-07:00

this is the 1st week of my shop's opening...

quite lot of people visit my shop on the 1st day...

slowly on 2nd, 3rd, 4th day,

the sales gonna be abit dropped....

haiz...

i know business is like this...

got peak and downturn...

创业难，守业更难。

this week i am quite busy with my shop's stuff...

at the same time, i have to handle my studies...

quite tired...

no choice, that's my business...

what to do???

i just created a page in fb...
visit it when you all feel free la~
https://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/pages/Lovely-Secret-Lingerie-shop/149826201755181

these few days,

don't know why, i felt super duper tired...

hope i won't fall a sick,

especially chicken pox...

but, i have a strong 6th sense,

tell me that there's something bad to happen...

worry~>.<

Precious holiday

2011-05-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

My sem break is only for 2 WEEKS...really precious~ wuwu~ T.T
i think after this 2 weeks, i am gonna have some changes...
because i have many things to do----> open a shop, have a new hairstyle, bla bla bla...

dada~ totally different of my style~wuu~

About my shop, start from 1st day of my holiday, i non-stop busying about it... from stock taking, furniture, decoration, and so on.... hope everything will be fine...

About my studies, i m slowly changing my view on my result...

don't ask me why, maybe just because a sentence:

"A certificate is just a ticket for you to enter a company; what I want to hire is YOU, NOT YOUR CERT!!!"

So from now on, i think i am not going to stress up myself so much anymore...

Anything new, only I update to you all here~>.<

why?!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-14T06:59:00.000-07:00

why you always rely on me????just because i am better in that?!
when you rely on me, i rely on who?!
i really appreciate what you have done, but attitude is important!!!
seems like i am the source, what also rely on me!!!
not saying i am selfish or what, just that i also want somebody to discuss...explain to me...
but not me to tell the answer...
i think i have to look for another life, some changes...just like what she said...
maybe that will be better, more comfortable for me...

10 unfortune

2011-04-06T09:31:00.000-07:00

i think today can be said as quite a busy or tired day for me...
1st unfortune, i left my handphone on my honey's car so i feel unsecure for the whole day, i think everyone gonna be the same, right???
2nd unfortune, qq forget to change presentation slide to 93-version, so i had to go library to change it....
3rd unfortune, all library's PCs are in 93-version, can't read my slide, SHIT!!!!
finally there is a fortune thing here, i saw a girl reading novel with her laptop, and i tried to ask her for help, really appreciate it~^.^
4th unfortune, i forgot small orange gonna return me blazer and i had left the tutorial room, OMG!!!really felt sorry to her~
5th unfortune, we didn't print out the slides for presentation's evaluation, ahhh!!!
6th unfortune, thought to print it in ICT, people mountain people sea, how come?!UTAR cannot have more computers for printing mea?!all H&I students have to print with the only pc!!!!haiz~
7th unfortune, we have to print at eastlake since lack of time, how come the sun can be so big so hot?! plus my ulta air-con and our formal shirts, made my car like a big oven, everyone gonna be hangus~
luckily, we still print out the slide and i was able to have a nice parking...(if not, we had to walk a long way round to class with our pretty formal with heels)without that, we all already hot and sweat enough, more effective than sport, LOLzzz
8th unfortune, WL promised to get the projector's set for us was absent and he didn't tell me at all...we kept on waiting and waiting...after 10mins, i decided to get it from ICT since we are the 1st group, no choice!!! haiz~ shouldn't it be guy's responsibility?T_T
9th unfortunate, we have no idea about how to set up, aiyoyo~ luckily, there was a guy to help, thanks to him too~the group after us wanted to change to 2nd group last week, i think they don't want to take the projector and prepare for it gua~but, luckily they changed, because one of their members is good in presentation...(it will reflect we are poor and get lower marks if they before us, xexe)
10th unfortune, i must be responsible to return the projector to ICT because they kidnapped my ID...a guy was forced by tutor to help me, pity~thanks to him anyway...
ANYWAY, today's presentation can be said success too~i got 2nd highest marks among today's presenters...happy!!! ^.^

Jusco 叔叔

2011-03-06T05:00:00.000-08:00

今天难得和家人去JJ看戏逛街，竟然遇到Jusco 叔叔!

想不到除了mcd 叔叔还有jusco 叔叔!!!

他是 pencuri+ orang gila+ 贪小便宜的人!!!

他每一摊试吃挡都吃过了，但是都没买~我想他是这样当一餐吧!

当我们在试吃的时候，他在旁边自言自语~

他竟然趁机扒走了我和妈之前买的化妆品和发饰。。。

真聪明，说他笨又笨不完，只会拿付了钱的东西!!!可恶!!!

我们还以为掉了还到处找。。。

我妹妹从厕所出来，竟然见到他，他还拿着我那袋东西。。。

不知道他认得我妹还是觉得那些东西对他没用，他就放到一位太太的推车里就走了。。。

我妹妹看到了，问了那太太就把东西拿回来了。。。

我们跟‘吃焦’说，他还说他不止一次ka-ka-cao-cao 了!!!

大家还是小心为妙吧!!!

What to do????

2011-02-28T08:54:00.000-08:00

Don't know what's going on...I just feel lack of energy....
Maybe my life too plain too boring, doing routine stuff everyday...
Really hope to have something special, something challenging, something fresh~
What can i do????? suggestion please!!!!

Y1S3

2011-02-20T03:03:00.000-08:00

this sem is like what i wish to have but....something weird i felt...
it's like what desired---to have same timetable with QQ, kelly, vicky. But....
I worry the same incident happen to me AGAIN!!!

these few weeks, someone close to me last sem start to have nothing to chat with me, izit too understand of each other??? I don't know...but i hope that she will be my good friend forever~

I realised that actuali i'm quite troublesome just like a fly...wee wang wang wee wang wang~
especially always talk about academic things, tutorial, lecture, assignment bla bla bla...
but please forgive me, i'm onli concern with my studies...

another thing for all my friends, i hope that if there is anything i have done offended you all, please talk to me...i don't want any misunderstanding to happen between us so we can only be the true friends, really!

cny and valentine

2011-02-20T02:51:00.000-08:00

Actuali not much places I have went...
in CNY, my relatives back and i get angpao from them, that's all!!!
for valentine, it's abit different with last year. i didn't have present for him and so he was. We just had steamboat+ BBQ dinner that night... As long as we can be together, that's enough~ ^.^

CNY is cumin!!!

2011-01-31T00:59:00.000-08:00

CNY is cumin!!!wuhoo~
last fri onwards, i was busy helping my mum to do CNY's stuffs. Buying vege, meats, rice, soft drinks, biscuits, house decoration stuffs bla bla bla....until today, my mum still keep going in and out because of these...

this CNY, my aunties and uncles are coming back from johor and singapore, with my cousins of course, so my house gonna be sardine soon. because of them, we have to buy rice!!!wow, sounds big matter in my house cause my mum never and ever buy rice since i think half year to 1 year ago....HAHA....cause my house seldom cook especially RICE!!!!LOL

soft drinks

biscuits~

RICE!!!

This year, my mum and I decided to have a fake flower as decoration rather than real plant...so we are using this...

this...

this...(made by me)

and this...

chiang chiang~this is finally wat it looks like...

i am enjoy to prepare those stuff...BUT, bad news here....i have to finish my homework--business law tutorial presentation, article review and FAF tutorials...wuwu~T.T

anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Ice breaking

2011-01-14T10:40:00.000-08:00

This is the 1st time I have been involved in orentation as helper. Actually is QQ invited us, but we were willing also la...since kelly,QQ,vicky and I can be sakai if we do it together.BUT..... few days before, QQ said she quit and I replaced her as the game master and kelly wouldn't back so early, so left vicky and I. T.T

There were lots of meetings and trials before that, it's boring!!!
Everytime also wait wait wait during the discussions because the assistance of the ice breaking master had to discuss with different game station one by one...most of the time our station is no problem but we still have to attend the meeting and wait wait wait. ARGH!!!
**this all have to say thanks to QQ and kelly because they quit. QQ: you cheated on my trust on you, LOL you said it's fun!!!(i'm not really angry on you two, don't think too much ya...haha)

today is the actual day of the ice breaking, it's so torment to wake up at 5.30am (Wakao, i never wake up at such time after secondary school!!!) after reaching the sport complex only those commitees realised they didn't bring the material we need at the station...so vicky and i have to cut straw in the early morning. Haiz~ (purposely wake up so early to cut straw...=.=)

after settle, we had the breakfast of nasi lemak and tesco choice chocomalt (of course i didn't drink that!) The game started at 8am and we ended at around 10am...in the middle i was like a recorder--keep on giving the same intruction for each group...
**instruction: guys, plz line up in 2 column facing me according your teams. In this game, you have to be hand in hand with your team members. without letting go of your hand, you have to pass through the hula hoop from the 1st until the last person. After the hula hoop finished, the 1st person may start of passing the rubber band using the straw given. In case the rubber band drop off half way, you have to start again from the 1st person.Last person plz hold the rubber band, we may count how many you get later. Collect as much rubber band as you can and that group will be the winner.understand?**(boring rite???)

to make it more fun, i went and disturbed the members, like making the sound of kissing when they were passing the rubber or ask them questions---what's your name???where you come from???got girlfren a???you veli handsome o~bla bla bla.....

after ceremony of giving prizes for 1st, 2nd and 3rd group, we cleaned up everything and went back with a free lunch box.

I slept from 1pm-8pm after back home, just like dead or coma.LOL.so now, i am tired, keep on yawning but cannot sleep, maybe result of sleeping too much...LOL

陈展林，我爱你!!!

2011-01-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

那天，他打来。吱吱唔唔的，好像有什么像说似的。。。
他跟我说了一番话，我哭了。。。不知道是感动还是什么。。。
现在，我知道他什么都先想到我，为了我们的将来打算、策划。
就算要他辛苦千万倍，我知道他是愿意的。

陈展林，我爱你!!!

Happy 2th Aniversary!!!

2011-01-01T08:37:00.000-08:00

二周年纪念快乐~
昨天是12月31日，BG 有一个倒数嘉年华，他是主席所以我也过去了。。。
一路上，他都一直接电话，看起来好烦哦~ 所以我一直到那里都没出声。。。
不知道为什么，看到他这么烦，我也烦、不开心了。。。

到那里，他就把车停在市议会放了cone的范围，我想是因为他是主席才可以停那边吧。他没说什么就下车了，我也不知道怎么办。。。我就关掉引擎，把礼蓝拿下车，当帮忙吧！之后就一直坐在车上了。。。看着他忙来忙去的，我又帮不上什么忙，我好无奈、好不知所措哦！坐着坐着没事做，我就想去附近的guardian 逛逛。。。突然一个不知哪里冒出来的MDKB的人骑着摩托跟我说：Sini tak boleh park la, itu sebab kami cone di sini!!! 我说：Pengerusi pun tak boleh a?!!! 他竟然答：ITU JUGA!!!!　我超不爽的!!! 立刻上车把车驾走了，那是超多车，就随便停在一个地方。。。不知为什么，我的眼泪流下来了~ 我忍住，不让自己稀里哗啦得哭出来，但眼睛还是红了，我就在车上等，等眼睛没红再下车。他打来，过来了。问我什么事，我就告诉他。

载我回他家冲凉之后，我们又回去了。无聊的我坐在路边，玩手机、玩相机，要解闷就是了。辉拿了一包炒米粉和美禄给我，他也买了个汉堡给我。我知道他也有在意我，想陪我。又再次的等等等。。。我决定走去Guardian逛逛，看看需要买些什么，这总比坐路边等好吧?! 八点多我就回去，和辉卖glowing stick, snow spray,和那些庆祝或派对用的东西。。。(没什么生意，那里的人真得很吝啬，听到要钱的就走了，才几块钱都不肯花)

一直到11点多，大家都急着要倒数、都乱了。没人看着辉的货了，那些讨厌的印度和马来小孩见没人就来乱拿，还那个塑胶袋来装，就算不用钱也不用这样吧，真猖狂！辉又不在，那些可是钱啊！我唯有坐在那里守着咯，连烟花都看不到。

本来我还因为今天买了个相机，想和他拍一张照片，后面是烟花的。毕竟是二周年嘛!!! 我那天早上还特地研究怎么连拍，要拍哪一个角度才看到烟花。不过，唉~ 他要在台前代表倒数，觉得他也不能和我拍照吧! 我就想：拍他倒数也好吧~ 不过我连找个位子站也没有。。。我就一直坐在那里，等了一天的东西也得不到。唉~ 算吧。。。他之后找到了我，那时的我也没心情了。

等一切完了，又不知为什么，我又好想哭哦~ 又流了几滴眼泪。。。是因为他没陪我吗? 把我落下吗? 我不知道。。。

之后到汤水街，吃了点东西就回了。他问要不要去公园走走，我蛮想去的，但我知道他很累了，我就说累要回去睡了。就这样，2011年1月1日00点01分，我是自己坐着过的。。。

1月1日，我还以为能单独去逛逛街，看看戏，拍拍托。但是。。。唉~ 算了吧~
学会了一件事：不要想太多；想太多，期望就会多；期望高，失望就会高。

Merry Christmas!!!

2011-01-01T07:05:00.000-08:00

再一次充满期待的我~
一起床就开始打扮了，挑些不一样的衣服。。。
之后就等等等。。。

一点多，他打了个电话来说：我做完我的事了，等下就过来~
等等等II。。。
与其一直等，我就开了一套戏~
四点多---竟然看完了!!! 他才打来。。。

我们在金保吃了饭就赶着上去怡保看戏了~
之前还打算去打边炉。。。(算了吧)
不过到最后还是开心の。。。

X'mas eve

2010-12-24T21:08:00.000-08:00

昨天，我照常帮忙看铺之后。。。五点回家，林说晚上和我去吃晚餐。
到了怡保东区，兜了好多圈都没停车位，我们就停得比较远一点，又不知道要吃什么。
Station 1 和扒王都挤满了人，最后决定去 "天涯海角" 试试。。。

本来还以为可以享受一下两人世界，毕竟两年前的今天是他送我第一份礼物的时候。。。
其实没什么大不了的，只是想好好和他吃顿饭。。。
突然，国辉和他朋友来了。。。
基于礼貌上，我们还是要和他们坐在一起的。

就这样，我们的平安夜就这样过了。。。
有点不开心，是因为没了二人世界。。。
有点开心，是因为还是能和他一起过。。。

积极人生观

2010-12-21T04:34:00.000-08:00

你不能左右天气，但你可以改变心情。

你不能改变容貌，但你可以展现微笑。

你不能控制别人，但你可以掌握自己。

你不能样样胜利，但你可以事事尽力。

你无法预知明天，但你可以利用今天。

你无法决定生命的长度，但你可以控制它的宽度。

洗牙记

2010-12-20T22:28:00.000-08:00

前几天，我在想: 有什么我能做呢?

终于给我想到了!一件我很久没做的事~

就是.... 洗牙!!! T.T

还记得我中三开始, 我就开始每年都要洗牙了.

中五之后, 没有牙齿检查, 也就没再洗牙了.

说起来也有差不多两年没洗牙了.

那天,我决定去检查一下... 我差不多两点到诊所, 等到四点半才到我...

我又一个人去, 没什么可以做...

唉~ 等到我快发霉了....

一进去检查, 医生就说我有很多牙石,

要洗牙了!!! AHH!!!

虽然洗牙是不痛的, 但是就是有一种莫名的恐惧...

医生还说, 最好以后我每年都要洗一次牙, 因为它们生得很快...

虽然说现在我的牙齿很干净了, 但是我总觉得怪怪的... 唉..........

Y1S2

2010-12-17T01:38:00.000-08:00

Anyway, this is a short but happy sem...

I have learnt alot in this sem....

learnt how to be SAKAI in a presentation...

learnt how to be a brave emcee in a campaign...

learnt how to escape in a boring lecture...

all these have to thank my friendssss....

Kelly...

Vicky...

and of course, QQ!!!

Yesterday was my last paper, wuhoo~

I'm freeeee~

I had KFC as my dinner for celebration ^ ^

Suddenly Kayu asked me for K singing...

finally~ long time didn't shout!!!lol

However, till now...

I don't have any idea what to do in my 1-month holiday...

but what i am sure is...

I'll really appreciate for this holiday...

because it's suffer for me in short sem...

all RUSH RUSH RUSH ~

Hope there'll be something fun for me in this holiday~

waiting for it~

2nd time drive to ipoh

2010-12-02T21:36:00.000-08:00

driving really tired...

somemore drive after shopping for the whole day...

my legs are damn tired now...(last night even pain)

yesterday went for shopping with QQ, kelly and vicky...

since i can't recognise the way and ipoh parade is the only place i know drive to....

that's the only choice...

i never expect they can shop for 3 hrs for only 1st top floor...

walao~ this is my 1st time again after 1st time timetable registration within 15mins...

all of us shopped about 8hrs there...

but i think still haven't finish hunting for all of the shops because they skipped some of them...

i saw a pretty dress and tried it...

it's nice and suits me...

but.....

i was shocked when knowing the price-----RM239!!!

she said the dress is designed by their own hop, can't buy anyhere...

wakao!!! need bo?!

SUB also cheaper than that...

of course, i didn't buy la...

don't know why..

i bought few things there but still can use around RM150...^^

i think is because of the BB cream la...

erm...

actually i don't know is i think too much or what happen...

i had a weird feeling for the whole shopping day...

anything i had done wrong???

if yes, i hope that my friends can tell me...

i don't want the same incident to happen on me again!!!

after campaign

2010-11-29T22:30:00.000-08:00

yesterday is the moral campaign of my group----discrimination!!!
at the same time, i was the emcee for that campaign!!! walao!!! betapa berani saya ni!!!
after the japanese lecture before campaign, i start feelling my nervousness...
although just a few papers of script, i still can forget what i have to talk...

luckily, i could act steadily, even though my hands were cold with shaking legs....
maybe because of my malay pronounciation is good and my body language, that's why yan lin said i was steady. Ahh!! forget to tell you all, i am the only emcee that not holding cue card or paper among all the other groups when i speak, geng le? lol

but, at the same time, i have to recognise that i was forget about what i have to said when the campaign almost end. so, i just try my best to tune back to the conclusion, xexe....^^ anyway, i think that's the only part i didn't perform well....

after the campaign, yanQ, kelly and i went to kelly's house to let kelly change back her clothes since she was wearing baju kebaya to act as Siti Norhaliza, lol...then is my house's turn, they came and wait i bath then went to Lum Kee for chop rice...

since nothing to do last night, we decided to melepak and kacau-kacau di shop-shop yang buka...
accidentally, QQ bought a dress!!! how come it became a shopping?!lol
then we moved to Eclipze, kacao there for a long time only we got some mask or essence those stuff...again, QQ bought the most--- mask a, nail sticker a, essence a.....

essence!!! 2 on the left for my mum and the right one is for my ownself !!!

after finish kacao-ing, it's raining!!!
we decided to go 21st century for some drinks and snacks...(nice asam po fish~)
about 11pm, then we went back...

at the end, we didn't know what we had did that night...but happy also...yuhoo~ ^^

sakai

2010-11-26T08:47:00.000-08:00

我今天真的扩出去了。。。
这是我第一次做这样有“娱乐性”的东西。。。
在这么多人面前跳舞，换裤子。。。
不过今天还演得蛮开心，蛮成功的。。。
还有人夸我们演得好咧，真开心。。。

说起来还真的要谢谢阿娇。。。
不是他的creativity----sakai，我们也不会这么成功。。。^^
还特地参与我们的drama, 我看也只有我们这组这么sakai 吧。。。嘻嘻。。
突然觉得有点后悔今天没拍照留念添，唉~ 算吧！

不知道是不是我们几个----vicky, QQ, kelly(ah ma) and I 走在一起才会这样咧？
真没想到几个女生可以sakai 到这样的程度。。。haha......
和他们一起真得很开心，也许这就是好朋友吧。。。
开心不开心都分享，连下课讲废话也可以很开心。。。
真喜欢这样的感觉。。。

这应该是我到UTAR之后第四个成功的表演(presentation)。。。
1st---foundation plastic surgery talk show
2nd---foundation makeup press conference
3rd---degree management presentation
4th---THIS!!!(although mr kong didn't praise us, but I already consider it as success)

顺便报告一下今天的行程：
今天表演后就去mcd当庆祝了。。。
之后就去排时间表，决定下个sem也要在一起。。。(不离不弃~)
回来吃个晚饭后，九点又去moral kempen discussion。。。(真是铁人~)
不知为什么我又变成kempen emcee了~

好了，我要睡了。。。晚安!^^

Sunday

2010-11-20T22:39:00.000-08:00

this is a special sunday for me~
1st, this is the 1st time i had my test on Sun. (again, Universiti Tak Ada Rehat!)
2nd, this is the 1st time i had to rush into the classroom. (thankx for UTAR management!)
3rd, i had to grab a seat in the exam hall. (seats are so limited---limited edition for each slot!)
4th, i can go for test anytime any venue. (wow~flexible test!)

all these really have to say THANKS to UTAR....
why they can't arrange the exam rooms according lecture groups?!
then all students no need go here and there like 盲头苍蝇...
how come got test can allow students enter any venue?!
why they can't open lecture hall for exam?!
since lecture hall so big then can end faster la...
why they postpone the exam at the last minute?!
my slot should be from 10.40-11.20am...
but they just stick a paper stated that FBF students starts from 11.30am end at 3.30pm...
walao~if unable to rush into the room, i think have to wait till last slot already...
luckily, i am success to enter for the FBF 1st slot!!!lol

again, the other business is, all UTAR students really not polite for the exam....
especially GUYS, not gentlemen!!!!
when i am waiting in front of the door (can be said as being crowded), A BLACK-SHIRT GUY keep pushing on me!!!i know you want to enter the room but can you don't push on me and just stand there?! b4 this you push on Yan Lin, then you push on me!!if i can't defend myself, of course i felt down because of you already!!!because of you, i can't pick up my pen and write anymore! luckily is true and flase onli....defending myself already used up all my energy, you know how big how tall are you la....T.T

STUPID!!!

busy busy busy

2010-11-18T07:36:00.000-08:00

don't know what happen this few weeks....
if not busy with assignments, then sick again...haiz...WHY~

last last week diarrhea, last week sore throat + fever, this week flu already....
why viruses keep attacking me???!!! go away!!!
why my short sem life so pity????

yesterday more even worse, my car get into drain....how cum?!
TOTO pun tak kena, kena benda macam ini....so LUCKY la you, chan yuen yue!!!
besides my luck,i think harvard really aota la...such thick drain cover also can break easily...
when i went to have a look at the drain cover, the cover really confirm aota already...
normally the steel inside should be at least thick as my finger but....
it's thinner than my pen...haiz...
to all utarian whether go there for discussion or thise live there,
don't put your car on that already, i'm already the 2nd case there ....

this sem is super duper many assignments and midtermssssss...........
2mr is EI quiz and Sun is Moral test (how come test can be held on Sun?! don't ask me, i also don't know)
next week is EI presentation and Pengajian Msia 2nd test.....T.T

hope my body wouln't be so week anymore and all assignments pass fast fast....(this sem pass faster even better) wuhu~ waiting for the Penang trip in the sem break.....

patient

2010-11-08T05:42:00.000-08:00

Last friday, i had all the same meal with my mum for the whole day---curry mee for brunch and rice from mamak at nite. Yet, i had diarrhea and stomachache in the early morning around 4am on the day after but my mum was nothing and having nice dream at that moment...wuwu~

At 8am on the same day, i had japanese quiz and and pengajian malaysis midterm around 4pm. So i have to force myself to go for class although i was sick. Honestly, i didn't get into bed from 4am to 8am because the stomachache really drive me to die!!! that's why i am damn sleeply at that time...

After end my japanese tutorial at 9.30am, i went to clinic with my mum. I ate the medicines after having some light breakfast---the medicines are just same like what my dad gave to me. anyway, just have it.After that i feel better and get back to my bed for a nap. i had another japanese tutorial class at 2pm. again, i forced myself to go for class.

During class, i was sleepy and i tried to be awake and finally i had a nap nearly 1 hour in pengajia malaysia lecture (i dislike this subject at the same time too!xexe....) luckily, i did well for my paper. (1st, almost all the questions are given in the tips. 2nd, we were cheating~ party involved: kelly, issac, tanning and of course, me! )

After all the classes, i slept at home for around 5 hours. another problem came to me---headache.haiz~ my dad paste some medicine paste on my neck and head and i felt better after then.

medicine for my sickness

As a patient, i was pity. At the same when i was sick, i have to rush for my assignments as well, there's no time for me to rest at all, really UTAR---Universiti Tak Ada Rehat!

there's another 2 midterms waiting for me---japanese on this thu and moral on week 6 (it will comes very soon).anyway, chan yuen yue! gambateh la~

stupid yuen yue

2010-11-04T13:34:00.000-07:00

you reali stupid!!! even more studpid than a pig!!! better go n die...useless here...
how come u can answer that question like that?!
think with ur butt oso noe that will never never be d answer la!!! STUPID!!!

hopeless d la~dun think about it anymore~
prepare to dissapoint others....
you will never never be 1 of them!!!

i know! you are not reali want the money, juz to show your ability and show that you can do it....
but that's not reali ur level...
reali, even those words you should understand with your degree level now, u still have to check dictionary!!!
higher ur expectation, higher ur dissapointment....
i know u hope to belong to that category but please wake up!!!!
what u can fight them?! with ur broken english?!
c'mon, stop dreaming there!!!

rush week

2010-11-04T05:53:00.000-07:00

this is the 3rd week of my short sem already...it really rush~
I finished my individual EI assignment on mon and have to consult mr kong the day after.although i do not have class on Tue, but i still forced to wake up at 9am and go for consultation...But his consultation hour is start from 10am...have u get the answer why still am i wake up so early and wait in front of his room??? IT'S BECAUSE KELLY AND I WANT TO BE THE 1ST TO CONSULT!! and we know that ther'll will be alot of students going for his consultation, if 1 of them takes 30 mins, how long we have to wait???...lol

Wed......is the day of my presentation!!!
luckily, mr kong said he will not be so strict in the 1st week....but (don't know why)i am still nervous in my presentation...this makes my presentation looks bad! haiz~

Thu.....today!! i had an interview for the scholarship!!!
and i am the first candidate....wakao~
this is the first time i go for interview....don't know what they will ask me~ worry~
When i stepped in the room, i had try my best to cover my nervous....
in the interview, those questions really shocked me....
EG:
1) do you think there is any relationship between Quantitaive Techniques and Accounting?
    (can i say no relationship???of course not!!! so i just link them "terpaksa-ly" with my broken english)
2) what is the difference between accounting and accountancy?
   (walao~how i know??? as long as i know how to do the accounts and pass, that's ok la~)
3) What is differentiation? do you think that is related in accounting?
    (am i taking QT1 exam now??? how i relate to account o???same as Q1, just link them "terpaksa-ly")
4) your result quite good ya, what's you secret?
   (can i say i memorise all the notes and vomit out in exam hall???of course not also!!! juz simply give him answer like pay attention in class like that!!! not really a good answer rite?)
5) I have a friend not good in QT, what is your recommendation to improve him?
   (can i say he is stupid and ask him go bek study???not again!!! so i just say practice makes perfect...)

Can these question can be asked in an interview of scholarship?! wakao~i think you are testing my critical thinking or something like that...but i can tell you honestly, my brain cannot turn!!!---or you can say i have no brain at all....my brain can only function to memorise notes~

At the same time, one of the interviewer keep frowning...don't know she do noy understand what i said or what....this makes me nervous more and feel uneasy...

after my turn, seems the candidates perform well...because the interviewer keep nodding their head when listening to the answer given...(sei lo~that means my performance bad lo~haiz~)

Fri...is deepavali festival!!!holiday!!!
but yet, i still need to study because i have japanese quiz and pengajian msai midterm on the same day on Sat!!! T.T

and, i still have a lot of assignments waiting for me~What a pity week~

new sem

2010-10-18T04:47:00.000-07:00

get my result last week and that's quite surprise me...xexe...happy with it~

3.8 again!!! (not trying to show off here ya)

today is my 1st day of my degree 2nd sem...
and yet i can't access portal yesterday night to view my timetable...then how can i know the time and venue?
i found a timetable i saved finally and just follow it....
Until now only i know that i am following wrong timetable because i have updated it already~lol

Just now, i had changed my timetable due to many people drop subjects...(thankx alot ya!!!)

Finally, i can follow my course structure and incidentally, i have same timetable with Kelly except Japanese...

This is the one!!!

Better than solo all la~

Hope can have another nice sem~

中毒

2010-10-08T00:22:00.000-07:00

这个假期不知怎么了，太得空了吗？还是闷傻了吗？
总是身痒、想出去血拼。。。
我想我是中毒了。。。中了血拼毒！！！

但是ptptn给我的钱只有一千块是生活费，其他都是交学费的。。。
之前去云顶和吉隆坡已经用了五百块了，已经没什么剩了。。。
加上我也想存多点钱，所以我就尽力抑制我自己不病发。。。
不然我看很快就会毒血攻心、毒发身亡~

现阶段的方案就是千万不要带我去百货公司。。。
因为连我也不知道我能不能再抑制自己！！！

中毒的证据

2010-10-04T04:20:00.000-07:00

mushrooms start to grow on my head... spider webs start covering me...
super duper boring a~

what can i do???

you are Busy, i am Boring :(
we are 2B!!! (haiz...start talking nonsence here tim~)

HELP!!!

2010-10-02T06:20:00.000-07:00

刚听到老公出车祸的时候，吓死我了。。。
心快跳出来。。。差点驾车去找他了。。。

他昨天才答应我四点多就会来载我，一起去夜市。。。
所以我等他的电话从下午四点等到八点多。。。
原来他七点多到了，电话又坏了，按铃我又听不到。。。
他又赶时间，只好先回去。。。

就在回去途中。。。

都是我的错。。。
为什么我不在楼下等他！！！
幸好他没什么事。。。

genting+KL trip

2010-09-30T03:09:00.000-07:00

Just back from KL~ tired~
Haiz~ really don't know why am i follow this trip!!!just because cherrie asked me to go...
all others i also don't know who they are even the their name...

before this, i thought they are nice and friendly but in fact, i don't think so...
if i don't ask them anything, they really no need to talk to me...seems they also not so friend with cherrie too...so both of us just like tumpang their van only...not fun at all~

what i beh song the most is all of them don't inform us that the hotel is offering breakfast...
at the time we went down the lobby, they are having breakfast!!! and tell us it's till 10am only!!!SHIT!!!
why don't tell us?! just because we are not friend with you all??? argh~

actually the main point for me in this trip is SHOPPING!!!
but not syok lo~ i thought they are going to times square-- my heaven, for whole day...
but they went to 1U...wuwu~
seems they have nothing to buy there too...what they have bought just a box of sushi...swt~

i've got a lesson after this, don't go for trip with those who not friend with you!!! REALLY!!!

sem break

2010-09-25T03:17:00.000-07:00

Finnally reach sem break!!!
after tough war about 3 weeks, finally can get me free~ wuhoo~

but i don't know what to do during my holiday lo...
just sleep, watch tv, eat, online...other than that, nothing!!!
boring and becoming pig already~wuwu~
anyway, better than having exam la...

feel wanna shopping and travelling~
many of my friends went to KL and Genting already...jealous~

Crystal, Crystal, wake up!!!
you just continue your kampar lifestyle la~
sleep, eat, sleep, eat......nothing you can do already~

yesterday i already slept for 13 hours from 12.30am - 1.30pm...
almost half a day~
and today i slept for 10 hours from 2am - 12pm...
don't know what new record still can i break!!!

degree 1st final exam

2010-09-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

this is the 1st time i am so stressed for exam...don't know whether it is because of it is the 1st final exam for Y1S1 in degree...my advisor told me that degree Y1S1 is the best time to score but now...i don't think so...

since i have been in degree life, i realised that it is totally different from foundation studies...
foundation: lecturers and tutors try their best to HELP you...
degree: lecturers and tutors try their best to FAIL you!!! (especially Miss LXF)

today is my last day for last subject in final exam...
at the moment when i stepped out the exam hall, i am really happy till like yanQ's says--don't know how to describe my feelings today...finally no need to deal with those notes which they know me but i don't know them...yuhoo~ just say HI to my little sem break...hahaha...

overall, i am quite dissatisfy with 2 out of 5 subjects in my final--financial accounting framework and financial information for management...i don't know why i choose to be accouting students and can't do both account subjects!!!

i think FAF is the worst because i can't balance out the accounts for almost all the questions...the questions also hard, purposely bully my english not good by confusing me with the words i am not familiar to...wuwu~ FIM too, i have spent much time on process costing and i can't balance the account at the end too...wuwu~

AFTER FINAL EXAM
activity   : gathering dinner and chating
objective: farewell for next sem (different timetables)
venue     : East Sea restaurant and westlake
time       : 7-9.30pm
feeling    : unwilling to part with each other

i really happy and appreciate for knowing so many friends in this sem...yanQ, kelly, vicky, yan lin and see min, thz alot... i never have this kind of good feeling in having a gang for doing assignments and presentations, talking nonsence and "doing" tutorials in library, reserving places in lecture, singing K, celebrate birthday, gathering dinner and bla bla bla... like~ but we have to part with each other due to affinity...wuwu~ anyway, thz alot...muakz~

SHIT UTAR!!!

2010-09-04T10:56:00.000-07:00

yesterday is the 1st day of registration period for FBF students...starting from 1pm...
why?why?why? why FBF is the last faculty to register? and all faculty share the same timetable!!!
it's unfair for us...faculty before us at least can get a place for the subjects they suppose to study next sem at last minute, but what about us?!!
if we can register in the 1st 5 minutes, the slot maybe unavailable already...what even happen for those can't log in and register???

that day, after i know that the places are getting lesser and lesser, my mood drop till underground~
1st, i can't be along with my friends already, not even 1...
2nd, i have to choose what subjects to take since the all classes are unavailable...
3rd, i have to rearrange the time again and again...

being 1 of those unluckies, i have to reverse all my course structure to take Y2S2 subjects...after i decided to do so, i found 1 problem again, 1 subject from that is unavailable already...so i went back to the Y1S2 subject and found 1 subject is still available...finally, i go for a mix and match--1 subject of Y1S2 (emotional intelligence) and 2 subjects from Y2S2 (business ethnics and strategic financial management ).

another problem for me again, should i add 1 subject more from Y2S3 subject? since many of my friends also choose to add pengajian malaysia to become 4 subjects... they can follow the course stucture and all those 4 subjects' results are not counted in CGPA--either pass/fail only.jealous~
but for me, all subjects i take are not so familiar to me and 2 of them are counted in CGPA, so i worry that i can't cover so much...and, if i want to add pengajian malaysia also useless, full also...at the end, i decided to take 4 subjects in Y2S2--just reverse with my friends.lol

in conclusion, the thing i hate the most in UTAR is the online registration for timetable...
1st, not easy to enter the page...
2nd, wasting our time for keep refreshing the stupid page...
3rd, not easy to get the course you want...
4th, not easy to get the slot you want...
5th, not easy to arrange the timetable--(slot clash here and there)...

is flexi timetable a good idea???i don't think so...i rather to have fixed timetable and classmates every sem, at least no need for me to scratch my head again and again...

自卑

2010-08-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

最近我发觉我开始不太喜欢到购物商场去了。。。不知道是我自卑心作祟还是什么。。。

每次我到那里去，总觉得那些女孩都穿得比我漂亮，身材比我好，化妆都化的很美。。。即使那些只是十四十五岁的小妹妹，心里就不禁有些自卑了。

当和林去看半夜场电影时，这些感觉就更加厉害了。你们都知道电影院里出现的男女都打扮得很漂亮，穿洋装、高跟鞋、小可爱、化妆什么的。当他们用异样的眼光看我的时候，我就会心想：是我穿得太难看吗？是我太胖太丑吗？（还是我想太多）当林遇见他的朋友的时候，有时我也会很不好意思，可能觉得我会让他很没面子吧！

自从上大学之后，我就越来越胖了。。。我也不想啊！
每个学期都辛苦得要命，lectures, tutorials, assignments, presentations...有时不明白还要double lecture或tutorial...每课的时间都不定，害我三餐都不定时。。。我的食量比起那些瘦得要命的女生来的还小，我这样还会胖，还有天理吗？如果叫我运动的话，我忙得连睡的时间都不够啊~还叫我运动！有时间我倒不如补眠--补回考试失去的珍贵睡眠时间。你们可以说那些都是我的借口,也可以说我懒。。。

可能是因为我觉得我的外壳不够好，所以都会尽量用其他东西补救。。。
我会时常问他：我对你好吗？你给我几分？
可能在我的内心，总觉得对不起他吧。在我们认识的那段时间，虽然我称不上大美女但也不比现在差吧，至少是比现在来得瘦。

我也会问自己：我的优点是什么？我总找不出答案。
是成绩好吗？除此我找不出任何答案。但是谁会认为这是当女朋友的优点啊！（可能是比别人胖吧，可以当枕头）

直到现在，成绩好是我唯一胜人之处所以我会尽全力做到最好。。。之前，有朋友问我，为什么你成绩这么好？如果我能像你就好了！
那我现在应该能给他这么一个答案了，我看她现在应该没那么羡慕我了吧。。。

不过，我已经决定了，要减肥！要明年过年前把自己变回以前的样子，不管成不成功，我都尽力而为，至少尝试了。加油！

degree 1st sem

2010-08-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

this is the 1st sem of degree i have been in UTAR...in the 1st week, i quite quiet and worry that my degree will be the same with my foundation that i wouldn't know even 1 of the classmate in the class...starting from 2nd week, i knew many new friends here-- kelly, yan lin, see min, yanQ, vicky bla bla bla... sooner or later we all had become a gang (most gila gang in the class)...anyway, i had a lot of fun and happy time with them,thankx alot...

luckily this sem only have 2 assignments and 2 presentations, not so busy with those stuff....but what i busy in this sem is the MIDTERM!!! wuwu~i had midterms for around 5 weeks already for each saturday, sometimes 2 or 3 tests in 1 day, really energy exhausted with that...midterms already spend half of the sem...although midterms already passed, but there is another challenge coming to me-- final exam in less than 1 month...haiz...

evidence for hard study

among both assignments, i think i enjoy more in doing the managment assignment and presentation, quite a successful presentation that day too...happy~

yanQ best shot to snap all~

let's get which heels is whose!!!

last week is vicky's birthday and we had celebrate for it yesterday in Big A...i think vicky really surprise with that since it's over almost 1 week already...overall, i can just say there are 6 siao po (gila perempuan) shout with mic that day~lol

happy birthday sweety vicky~

last sem break in foundation II

2010-05-22T00:55:00.000-07:00

suddenly i found that i had left something important here--my foundation final result, that is what i gambateh for in the whole year...

this is my final result-- 3.8143...satisfying!!! xexe...

for this result, i can only receive half scholarship and make sure to maintain 3.5 and above (gt staff says to maintain 3.0 only, but i always believe the worst answer )...i think it's hard to maintain and Utar only offer me half of the fees if i can maintain it, not worth!

i sent an email to ptptn website since there is a rumour says that students that achieve 1st class result no need to pay back the ptptn...they reply me as follow:

"Dasar Perbadanan telah menetapkan pengecualian daripada membayar balik pinjaman hanya boleh dipertimbangkan kepada peminjam yang mendapat kelulusan Kelas Pertama Peringkat Ijazah Sarjana Muda bagi kelulusan pinjaman sebelum 1 Julai 2005 SAHAJA. Melalui Bajet 2010 pertimbangan juga diberikan kepada pelajar yang mendapat kelulusan Ijazah Sarjana Muda Kepujian Kelas Pertama yang bergraduat mulai tahun 2010 dan ke atas.

Sekian, terima kasih."

but there is still something i don't know, that is the result they meant is foundation result? or every sem's result in degree? anyway, that worth more because if my result can't achieve 1st class, i still able to pay back the loan because the interest is low. And, i think the 1st class level government state will be lower than UTAR, want to earn UTAR money is really hard...haiz....

yesterday, i went to UTAR admin and asked for my student bill. the staff said they haven't finished settle all the student bills and i am under scholarship so i can only collect it next week...so "efficient"~ they also told me that if i don't want my scholarship, just don't bother the acceptance letter and UTAR will send me a new student bill before the due date...just now, my friend told me that we can only collect our timetable after making payment...but, for the UTAR "efficient" level, i am sure they will send me the bill late...then i will get the timetable late lo? how do i attend classes? haiz...many questions in my head....nevermind la, just wait till next mon register and take the bill then see how la...

this 2 weeks, i had nothing to do...just went ipoh shopping with my friend and yumcha only...what a boring life~ but this is better if exam...haha...overall, in this 1-month sem break, i had wasted it and didn't go anywhere. not like most of my friends, go genting, melaka, singapora, penang....jealous~ but, i promised with my friend that we will had a trip together during next sem break...for the form 6 friends, maybe we will go genting after their mid-year exam la...see whether how they plan la...

confuse and nervous...

2010-05-18T00:18:00.000-07:00

few days before, i realised that many people had posted many comments about the degree programme semester. most of the people don't know what to do after received the offer letter and some even haven't received the letter. there are onli about 1 week left to start to registeration, after the registeration, i am gonna start the course that i have choosen, can't change anymore...

recently, i am wondering to change my course to 4-years programme and continue thinking many things that make me feel nervous and even lost direction...gary had discussed this matter with me, he is thinking in the same way with me...

yesterday, i had confirmed everything. i went to UTAR asked about the course contents. For my information, there is another kolej famous for accounting-- shen jai commerce kolej, so i went to asked about it also. its tuition fee together with my living expenses in ipoh is really much more cheaper than UTAR although i did not include any living expenses in kampar. actually, you all can consider me as 'anak manja'(the word gary used to me since i never leave my home alone), this is the result that my dad so sayang me till this level lo...it's a kind of hapiness also...xexe...

after my deep consideration and my dad's hope me to stay in kampar, i decided to continue my 3-years programme in UTAR and continue my last 5 ACCA papers in shen jai kolej...haha...what a beautiful mix and match!

last sem break in foundation I

2010-05-12T04:58:00.000-07:00

after i finished my last sem in foundation, i have learnt something...

people is selfish, individual...maybe i think too much or maybe that is my fault so that they treat me like this...

anyway, i know that it is hard to have a real friend nowadays especially after i left my secondary school...this is a materialistic society...

in this sem break, not too long or too short---only 1 month. after i finished the final exam...i slept all the time...replace back the sleeping hours i have lost because of studying for that 2 subjects...haha...

nothing special i have done in the sem break, sometimes watching taiwan drama...sometimes doing mask...sometimes watching movie in cinema...sometimes accompany my family shopping in ipoh...sometimes yamcha with friends...sometimes sing k with friends...i am nearly to finish watching almost all the movie in the cinema, iron man 2 la...ice kacang puppy love la...IP man 2 la...somehow, i feel sienz la...haiz...

on mother's day, we have celebrated in ipoh...that day, we have watched "IP man 2" and shopping for a while in Jusco until about 7pm...after that, we planned to go for dinner in oversea restaurant since my dad recommended the roasted pork there. unfortunately, that day is mother's day so although it is expensive to have dinner there but still, there is full...

then, we went to 艺食阁 to have stimboat, but haiz...again, full...we changed our plan to have western food for dinner...so we went to Oplace...

luckily, there is still available and we found a table...haha...so happy...cause we went to many places already, tired and sienz and mood also not so good already...i like the surrounding there because it gives me a peace and relax feeling...its design just like a little warm house...like it~><. there are many food choices, got western...japanese...korean...mee and so on...

the waiter already reminded us that we have to wait at least 45 minutes...but we decided to wait rather than changing place here and there since that is mother's day and most of the nice places are full.(except mamak stall,haha...) while waiting, i snap pictures to release my boring-ness...

drinks~

my sis and dad~

my dad and i~

my mum and i~

my shot shot sis~

dumpling came 1st~

curry mee my mum ordered~

my dad's special nasi lemak~

my sis's chicken chop~

finally, my unagi+kenasagi food box~yummy~

the day after that, we went to ipoh again to oversea restaurant and tried the roasted pork and the cha siew...really nice~xexe...

until now, only 2 weeks left for my sem break...time flies, feel sad, sob sob.....really want my sem break to be fun and unforgetable...to be continue...

失望

2010-04-10T12:36:00.000-07:00

失望，是一种不太好受的滋味。。。
不能说成伤心，更不能说是悲愤，
只能说它是一种希望被幻灭后的心情。。。

我们总是会为了那一个小小的愿望而筹备，等待甚至期盼。。。
还不时会幻想愿望实现的那一刻而偷偷扬起嘴角。。。

时间慢慢的走，总是会有来临的时候，
当事与愿违时，听到的与心里的相反时，
满怀期待的心情，就瞬间被那一字一句把心情跌落谷底。。。

失望的程度就依之前所设在心里的希望了，
希望越大，失望越大。。。

我相信很多女生都一样，
当失望时，心里总是会有不舒服的感觉吧，
有时眼泪还会不受控制的留了下来。。。
为了不让别人或他看见而愧疚难过，
只好说“没关系啦，不用紧的。。。”
其实心里在意得不得了。。。

别看小失望哦。。。
多次的失望可能会造成日后的不信任，甚至会对别人失去信心。。。
如果可以的活，就请别让她/他失望吧！

lamp

2010-03-30T03:06:00.000-07:00

i attended the cost accounting lecture on monday as normal...
after finish the lecture, suddenly siew cheng came to me and gave me a present and said happy birthday to me, so surprise!!!
it's the present shared by mz, aili and siew cheng. i thought they don't remember my birthday already...xexe...
after i brang it back and opened it, a surprise again, a lamp...same present gave by my friends...is giving lamp a new birthday present trend?or lamp good for me in this year?or my life is too dark?haha...but it's quite special lamp and i like it very much...thankx...

the 3rd present in my birthday~

19th birthday

2010-03-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

Just finish cost accounting midterm...and flu-ing...

the day before, i was wondering what to do to celebrate my birthday, my last TEENage, wuwu~ so i asked who want to sing k with me after my cruel midterm...i was asking my UTAR friends, maybe they shame shame or what, none of them was going...

Luckily, kayu, swee yee, wen fei and heong--my K partners have booked a big room in Big A to celebrate my birthday....so happy~ at least i am not celebrating my birthday alone, xexe...

Anyway, we all really enjoy and have fun with it...although i am flu-ing (really hard to sing).....

At almost 12am, kayu came in with a cake and they immidiately twist to sing happy birthday song...quite surprise, i thought they just sing k with me only...

the little birthday cake, just enough for we 5 person...

luckily not a big cake...xexe...

cake-sharing process...

eat faster...

hmm...yummy~

After the cake, a 'grand' ceremony held...

present-receiving ceremony~

my birthday present~

before...

after...

On my birthday, i faced the cost accounting assignment and celebrate with it till 1am...haiz...at the same time, i was busy reply those wishes on facebook(thankx for you guys wishes)...

The day after, i attend the tutorial class in the morning and meet with yit mun...she gave me a plastic bag--it's my birthday presnt!!!haha...yit mun, you are the one of my UTAR friends who gave me present...thanks...

the shirt yit mun gave...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

unbelievable...

2010-02-24T20:48:00.000-08:00

i just get my 2nd sem result, so strange...don't know why d mark is same as last sem's--3.7833, even the decimal place also the same...so weird, make me feel unbelievable...

weird result

the 2nd sem's result

the 2nd weird thing is emun's result, she really abnormal people...(she get 4.0 again!!!) such tough sem n subjects she also can handle so well, geng...when i tell my friend about her result, he sure that emun don't know what's tv, haha...i don't know she know what's tv or not, but i'm sure she know what's shopping, haha...

after getting the result, i remember something about eat...haha...that's our promise (emun, ah boy, ah girl, also me included)...if i am not wrongly remember, we had said that those under 3.5 and above 3.8 have to treat dinner, haha...so guys, better prepare and plan what you all wanna have as dinner when '4.0' treat...pizza?sushi? mcd? shark fin? abalone? haha...

should i blog???

2010-01-09T18:08:00.000-08:00

long time din write blog le...thinking not to write any already...duno why i like before but now, not even open my dashboard per week....
should i delete my account???wats writing blog for???for fun?for sharing?follow others?
if for sharing, can i share something unhappy or something i angry with it???i thk cant cz maybe will offend others or make them leave me...i dun wan like tat!!!
if onli for following, i can say i have no energy or desire to do these thg already...tiring oways to blog...sometimes it can be said wasting my time also...(not saying those like blogging are wasting time, no offend ya...)
or maybe i can leave my blog like this, i can write if suddenly i wan to blog; if not, juz leave it there la...

won Astro's prize

2009-11-30T03:40:00.000-08:00

that day, is a public holiday. since there is no class so i wake up late abit--almost 9.45am. suddenly, i heard the bell rang, someone was shouting around then my mum went down to look around who was that. it's a pos from Asrtro!!!

before this, i had participate in Dynasty Package-Home to Stars contest and knew that i am one of the winner but just for a small prize which available for 60 participants only---it's just a mobile strap.(better than nothing la) the Astro staffs had confirm my address with me before for several time.i am happy for wining that although is just a mobile strap because it's the first time i participate in online contest.

dada~it's my mobile strap (although is very ugly, xexe...)

2009-11-20T18:37:00.001-08:00

a friend

2009-11-20T18:36:00.000-08:00

after the first sem, i found some friends that can be said as same tone with me and i am happy when go together with them. we planned to have a same timetable for the next sem but unfortunately, few of them have their own problem and can't follow it so only one of them manage to get the same timetable with me...

a few weeks after the 2nd sem, i found some problem between us. most of the time in the campus, i always take care of her and treat her as my sister(or better than that). she just behave like a princess, maybe she is the one her parents care the most or what. i know it's hard to change own behavior and attitude so i just endure with it and be tolerate.

she likes to joke and sometimes she hurted me by the words and she did't realise. i knew it's unintentionally so i never take it seriously and forget it after awhile...

but one day, after the tutorial class, all students went out to take back their bags. at that time i was standing behind her and saw a guy was standing in front of the rack and kept chatting there. i knew she wanted to take her bag but blocked by that stupid guy, so i just said 'excuse me' with a louder sound than normal (i think it's ok to say that word loud abit). then the guy also said 'excuse me' to his friend with the loud voice also. after taking our bag, maybe my action made her felt embarras and ashame so she said a rude word to me...

but my starting point was to help her, so i felt very angry and thinking whether want to bother her again. while walking, i didn't said anything to her but we returned to normal and chatting together because there was a class after that, so i kept that aside...

a few days after that incident, i was thinking whether want to let her know. but some of my friend said that i should talk to her but i worry about what will be to our relationship after that. she will be angry and don't bother me again? or we will know each other better? it mades me think alot...

that day, finally i talked to her. i am glad that she be considerate and understand me...those action she made to me maybe she already took me as her best friend so she act in her natural way...anyway, i glad to have such a friend...

an accident

2009-11-14T03:56:00.000-08:00

if i am not remember wrongly, i met it last tuesday. after i finished all the classes about 4pm, i drove my car back through east gate. just passing through the roundabout, the car in front suddenly emergency break and stopped there.there is nothing in front of it also, haiz...the expected incident happened--my sportage 'kiss' the pajero.

at that moment, i scared and had a message in my mind: if the driver is a guy, i will go out of the car; if not, bye bye~(don't know why i will think like that, maybe i think guy driver will be fierce)xexe...unfortunately, the pajero parked to the roadsite and i saw a female driver...(Oo)

i think that is the first time she being 'kissed', i can regconise from her panic face, same to me...but of course, i am not panic...u must wondering what i did that time,is it?how am i settle this down?...

i tell you, maybe you will feel that i am a irresponsible person.in malaysia taffic law, the one 'kiss' other from back is wrong,no matter what the situation is! haiz...but in fact, it's her fault because she suddenly emergency break without reason. and, if i go out from the car, sure i have to 'ganti rugi' already, so i just went away fast...(Oo) hope that she is not clever enough that know to remember my car number, i think she is not beacuse so far i didn't receive any saman or others...

sick already...wuwu...

2009-11-06T02:49:00.000-08:00

this monday, after finished webpage lecture, yit mun, siew cheng and i planning to go for meat-ing in the cafeteria.that day, yit mun wore a deep blue hoody which similar with my jacket, so it looks alike when view us from back and siew cheng managed to take a photo from the back view...

guess who is me???

when it's the time for management studies lecture in the coldest room--DDK2, all of us started to put on our sweater and for sure yit mun didn't since she was wearing hoody...after a while, i felt very cold, it's cold then normal...(it's veru super cold, wuwu~)but they felt it's normal just cold abit. after that, we had a tutorial for writing for business.although already left DDK2, i still felt cold.(weird isit??) so after putting my stuff in the tutorial room, i went out and had some fresh air and hope to become warmer...yit mun was following me there adn siew cheng managed to take a photo for us again...

i think this photo is more obvious...

after i went back, i took a bath with the hottest water (of course not 100 degree, just maximum of the water heater) for a long time to warm up my body. then, my parent said i am in fever so i slept after taking medicine for 2-3 hours...wuwu~

luckily, i am recovered after that but still felt tired so that night, i slept early at 10pm...i recover very fast isit???haha...

shopping again...

2009-11-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

last friday, the day yit mun wiated for long time--shopping. after finished the tired and boring marketing lecture and sociology tutorial (#the boringness is because of both of the tutor and lecturer), my mum fetched us to the bus station . luckily, we got a air-con bus at 1pm.then, we start 'booming' each other and chit-chatting...(boom=saying ownself strength and weakness by just for kidding)

when it's about 2.30pm, we finally reached perade.after washing up and refreshing ourself, we started our mission that day...after we went out from the toilet, i saw the marrybrown and asked her to take a look or even take a picture sice she said she don't know what is marrybrown.(she know actually but just forget the name of it) haha...since i just had a sandwich for my breakfast that day, i went up to have my 'crepe' and a bamboo juice as snack or something like teatime...but as i was eating, yit mun kept on taking photo of my 'crepe'...what so special with that???

after that, we planned to shop from the top which is hip hop zone to the ground floor...but after walking around the zone, she said that is so attract her and she can't buy because she had to buy what she planned to buy first, so i brang her to buy the formal shirt first then only continue our 'mission'...

after finished our 'mission', it's already about 8pm.at that time, my honey already reached at the front of perade...then, we just ended up our shopping day with a dinner at ipoh...

things i bought...

a cap...

a scarf...

heel...

and a jeans...

a happy shopping day with yit mun...yeepi~

lucky and unlucky

2009-10-21T02:00:00.000-07:00

i can't get the parking sticker again, wuwu...so unlucky...
today, i have one lecture class(writing for mass communication) only because there is no tutorial class on the 1st week. the lecturer, mr chan is so funny, when the class started, he asked us to do a mexican wave, hopefully you all know what is that...i think that is to warm us up so we all just follow. he is so talkative, wanted to talk so many funny things to make us laugh.

after about an hour, he still haven't touch the lecture notes...haiz...waste time there...maybe can be said he had touched a bit la...he asked what is communication and asked all of us to stand up and get into partner in two and hold the hand.he said the pairs must hold the hands up and shout out the answer together then only can sit...(wa...)

can you imagine how many answers you can get from all the students in ddk1?in order to sit and not to sing a song in front of so many students, many answers came out, such as share info, facebook, maxis, telephone...maybe not so accurate but anything related also have been shouted out. finally, a pair of girls can't give the answer so they had been punished by singing a song, the song they sang is 'happy birthday'(so special...)

for me and my partner, yit mun, we didn't answer him but we sat down.(haha...guess why...)we 'curi curi' sat down without attention of him at the beginning because there are still many people haven't sat down, haha...(lucky...)

at the end, he only spent less than 30 minutes to finish the lecture notes, maybe the notes are too short la...i feel his class is like a show, making people laugh more than really lecturing...for some student may be good because it's a relaxing class...

STUPID Big A!!!

2009-10-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

last sat is my fren--kayu's birthday. since i am going to KL on sat, we all celebrate his birthday on the day before--friday. After confirm the time we all available, we decided to celebrate with singing K in big A because that is the only karaoke in bandar baru (no choice!)and we've long time didn't gather to sing K since i start my foundation.

that day, we(kayu, heong, wen fei, and me)arrived big A around 8pm and swee yee came later because she had tuition before that. Before i entered to the room, i've brang a cappucino cake to the counter that i bought that morning in 'just to eat'.

at about 11pm, a stupid waitress came in and asked, "isit anyone bought a cake?" i said, 'yes'." we've exchanged the cake with the other room, but we still have another cake, isit OK?" (what a stupid question?! can i say not OK?) Then, i went out and checked what the 'other' cake look like.

I think that would be a cake from 'just to eat' and about 1/2 kg like what i bought so that they mistaken it. But, when she took the cake, damn, it's a vanilla cake from 'Cake's Inn' which the box was in green colour.(how can u mistaken?! the box from 'just to eat' is in orange colour, are you colour blind?!) then, i said OK to her with my sour face and went back to the room.then, she brang a jar of orange juice in for aplologise.

I told all to my friends but i didn't talk with angry tone because the main character is there so that don't break his mood. Around 11.35pm, i went out with swee yee to take the cake in. because i was the one who hold the cake in, so i did know the cake is not enough 1/2 kg. In order not to distract them, i didn't talk anything, just sing the birthday song.

the cake is so small until can be said is only enough for 5 people to eat, actually the cake i bought is enough for kayu to bring almost half back.(so dissappointed!) i think they were not wrongly exchanged the cake but spoilt it and went to buy another cheap cake(reminder: vanilla flavour is the cheapest cake) from the nearest cake shop in hurry. the original cappucino cake cost rm22 which shared by swee yee, heong, wen fei, xin yi and me and yet, we end up by eating a cake much cheaper and undelicious vanilla cake...

the 'other' cake...

after we finished our cake, we played the cream and put on kayu face and we've dirty some part of the sofa accidentally.we all scared kayu will hug or put on us, so we went out the room. the waitress asked whether we are playing the cream, and she warned us will we will be fined for it.(os: who buy us a undelicious vanilla cake?!)we went in and cleaned it up...

at 12am--the time our package had finished, we out the room and back. when we reached the entrance, the waiters asked us to wait awhile and they checked the room. after they said that we are allowed to go, we only can go.(stupid! are we primary or secondary student?!)

at the end, i very 'beh song' but i said nothing in order to give a memorable 18th birthday to kayu. i swear i never go to big A again if possible even can't sing k already...

anyway, happy birthday to kayu!

yeah~

1st time bake cake...

2009-10-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

this is the first time i bake cake, so i choose the easiest cake--banana cake to bake, xexe...that morning, 'my sifu'--mum, brang me out to buy the ingredient needed. (icing sugar, egg, butter and of course, banana) when it's about 4pm, i awake from my sweet nap and prepared for that...

all apparatus and ingedients needed...

after my mum took out all the apparatus, it's the time we started our 'big' project, haha...first, cut 200g of banana into pieces. next, put 250g of 'mother choice' butter,eggs, cake flour, soda flour...then just mix up all those ingredients...

the ugly face of the cake before baking...

during baking...

dada...my nice-looking cake is born...

actualy, baking cake is an easy job for me, maybe it's just for banana cake, xexe...i think others cake will be quite challenging because i am not so interested in baking and cooking but eating, haha...

my result...wuwu~

2009-10-09T01:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday, after i brushed up my tooth and washed my pretty face and prepare to have a sweet dream, suddenly i remembered that i haven't harvest my plant in my farmville, so i jumped up from the bed and sit in front of my laptop and do it because they will wilt if i harvest them after a long time, xexe...

when i am harvesting my plant, siew cheng nudged me in msn and asked my whether had checked the result, emun too. so i hurry up go and checked my result, what a feel of panic that time?! but damn, i can't log in to the utar portal page. then immidiately i thinked of the way i log in to register for the next sem subject.(add 's' after http, haha...) really! it's work.

when i click to the sem result, my heart nearly dropped off. luckily, it's not bad but still, i can't reach the target i set (3.8 and above). i get B+ in english, haiz...i know it will be like that since i am not good in english. however, i have to say 'thank you' to min zhi because he had thought us (siew cheng, her friends, and i) the days before exam, maybe the effect would'nt be so big but at least helpful to us, thanks...

maybe my target is a bit high but i will try my best, i hope that i can at least get the half scholarship at the end to reduce my parent's burden. so in the coming sem, i have to work harder to reach it.crystal, gamabateh...

the 'good' result i get this semester...

weird thing...

2009-10-08T05:27:00.000-07:00

A weird thing happened these 2 days... my mum had received a bill from TMnet for the streamyx package used, the amount is rm120 (it's more than 1 month! about 2 months, it's weird!!!) since the the package we register for is rm60 per month.

the rm120 weird bill...

yesterday, my mum go to the TM point centre to ask for the explanation after fetching my sis back from school. i don't know whether the staff don't know how to explain or what reason, my mum don't know what she said and my sis not so good in malay and english, so it's so irritated for my mum. some more, the staff's alttitute is bad, she is impatient to serve my mum, never try to explain in detail and only want to explain with the paper attached with the bill (my dad will throw that paper since it's not useful, he said just keep the bill is enough) When my mum showed her the last month's bill and asked her again, she don't even care and look at the bill, the alttitude really annoying!!!

today, my mum asked me to go with her and asked the stupid staff again. Again, after fetching my sis, we went to the TMpoint. i pressed the postage printer and it's came out with number--1172 , then i wait. when it's my turn, i asked the staff. in fact, the reason is there is an adjustment whereby the payment had became prepaid already, normally it's postpaid, so we have to pay for 2 months for this bill. since my mum only pay me rm60, so i just pay for 1 month only.

after i get into the car, i told all to my mum, then she just realised and understand. what so difficult to explain?! really don't know what is the problem, maybe there is communication breakdown and both of them have to go for public speaking class, haha...

holiday

2009-10-08T02:53:00.000-07:00

These two days, i feel a bit boring and tired. Maybe i can't stay for late night starting now because i felt a bit painful on my chest yesterday when i was writting the blog, so i have to be more becareful already.(if not, i will die very fast,haha...)anyway, sleeping late is not a good habit.

i think in this holiday, the food i always eat as breakfats is the 'lao shu fen'. you must think of why i always eat that since there are various food in kampar available, the reason is: everyday my mum goes to the market early in the morning and i haven't wake up that time, so she will buy me a breakfast, then she will go to my dad's factory to give him a hand. So when i wake up, i have to heat them up again. Every night when she will ask me what i want to have as breakfast tommorrow, i also don't know how to answer her, just say whatever la, haha...then she just buy 'lao shu fen', because only that stall will open everyday and the others will rest one day per week(anyday), so what if i say want to eat that particular food and that stall off?

the 'lao shu fen' i eat everyday...sienz...

haiz...if u ask me what have i done this holiday, my answer will be: eat, sleep, watch movie/tv show, online (can go shopping if lucky). it;s just the same like a pig, haha...i had watched some tvb show: 古灵侦探B, 强剑...this is the only way to fill up my sparetime.

there is only about 1 week time left in my holiday, what else can i do? i never want my holiday finish so fast, i don't want to start the new sem so fast, i don't want to face the exam again...wuwu~ but this is the truth i have to face it.

给你的一番话

2009-10-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

我之前不是太了解你，也很少跟你谈天，就算有也只是‘一句起两句止’。经过差不多一年没一起，我总觉得你变了。。。觉得你变得有点把保护自己的墙壁给砌厚了，比起以前天真烂漫的你差好多。。。

不知道这一年之内你身边到底发生了什么事，还是面对了什么不愉快的事，我想应该是这些事改变了你。这段时期，我也对你的事略有所闻，知道你进入了一个行业也很努力地考取了执照，同时也经常对这事忙东忙西的，到处参加课程等。。。在这之前我也知道你有一段不太愉快的感情，虽然不太了解事情的来龙去脉，不过我想你多多少少都会受到一些伤害。

经过那一天，我对你的感觉就是难以亲近，说话变得聪明了，可能是因为你进修了那行业的课程。你总是能问出别人的事而当别人问起你的时候，你就不让他知道，把自己的事收得紧紧的，然后很婉转的把话题移开，十足在打太极一样。（厉害！）当我跟你聊天的时候，我不觉得我们像朋友在谈天，像被你访问的感觉，只有你问我答。有时你还蛮会挖苦人家的，因而人家就会觉得你不太容易亲近，也可能不太喜欢跟你讲话。偶尔挖苦朋友可能会是种乐趣，不过你呢就是十句有四句都是挖苦别人的话，造成别人对你的反感，这可不是件好事啊！

对于你这些特色，可能对你的兼职不会有所帮助因为你的顾客可能会觉得有点压力，因为当你有特定目的而面对某人时，你的目的根本就是写在脸上，每个问题都是针对那目的的，也不太会开玩笑。我想如果身为你的顾客，他们会希望你把他们当作朋友，有说有笑。。。

可能这些东西你都不会发觉因为它们都会很自然的表露出来，所以当我说你比较保护自己的时候，你就说‘我没有在隐藏任何事’。

#这些只是我对你的一番真心话，可能会不太好听但是这都是出自我的一番真心，如有得罪的地方，希望你不要生气。。。（对不起！）

shopping day...

2009-10-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

Today, i have date with my fren, bee kei to go for shopping in parade. Because of some reason, our plan have to be postponed to 12pm. This is the first time i took the bus with auntie to collect the money from us (normally will be man), she is so 'fierce'. When the 2 foreign workers paid her a RM1 because of not having RM0.20(i don't know whether they have but don't know what the auntie saying or what happened), the malay auntie scolded them with the word 'bodoh', thinking of they don't know they don't understand.When we reached ipoh parade, it's already about 2pm. Somehow we have chit-chatting a lot in the bus, but bee kei seem to be impatient to reach there.Before this, she said 'no winter shopping is allowed', so i think she is too eager to shopping, haha...

We planned to start our shopping from the ground floor, we had eaten ice-cream there. I had bought a tshirt from voir, a cut-in from F.O.S, a shirt from hip-hop zone. After that, we were tired so we decided to take a meal at the food court with sizzling mee and iced lemon tea at about 4 something. Then , we moved on to the back part of parade--parkson. I had bought a tshirt for my loving dad and a shirt for my honey from 'forest', actually i don't have enough money already so i borrewed rm30 from bee kei to pay it.

Since i am waiting my honey to come and fetch me, i have to wait until about 6 something. I saw a book fair and i am not so 'fren with books but bee kei like reading so she just stand there and starting to read her book and some mind test (if not, she so noisy want to back), so i did't disturb her, i just find a bench to sit (can be said rest my legs because bee kei never let me rest or sit went shopping, don't shopping be relax and comfortable?!haiz...)When she came and find me, we continue to walk to the floor below. Suddenly, i saw a bag i am looking for quite a time but i can't buy it because of the 'drying' of my purse, haiz...

At that time, bee kei was calling oneFM to participate a contest because she already know the answer for the question asked (What activity people spend almost 5 months in a life?), knowing the prize of the contest had already accumulated to RM5000, i also helped her to call in. Finally, she had called-in to oneFM but the guy said the answering section had over, asked her to call-in again tomorrow at 6pm. Then, we sat on a bench and start chit-chatting again...

Finally, my honey and his friend had came but by seeing bee kei's expression, i know she already 'beh song' (sorry ya~because they are in traffic jam, really.) Then, we 4 going to eat the famous food in ipoh (i think you all know wat food am i talking is). After that, we just went back to kampar since don't know why bee kei is impatient to return home. After i took bath, my sis, my honey's fren, my honey and i went to KFC to have some snacks (cheezy wedges and fun fries). Again, chit-chatting till about 10.30pm then we just return home. However, i am still happy today because of buying many 'leng leng' shirt.

mid-autumn

2009-10-05T04:52:00.000-07:00

The mid-autumn for this year abit special for me...that day, i am damn boring since i am in sem break and have nothing to do. Luckily, that day is my fren, xin yi's birthday, so i went out to buy a present for her, by sharing with my high school frens. By that, i wouldn't be so boring till 'mushrooms' are grown on my head. That time, my sis boring also, so i bring her to mu aunt's house since she is so 'fren' with my cousin. Then, i went to look for xin yi's present, thinking of maybe i can buy some clothes, xexe...I bought a purse 'accidentally', but the real accident is i never check my purse before, when i open it, it has only rm20 in all rm1, haha....luckily still enough to pay for that purse, if not, really 'FISH'!!!

the purse i bought 'accidentally', it's really nice but i am a bit worry because it's white in colour, scare will be dirty easily, have to take care of it carefully...

Then, i went back home to 'refill' my purse, by rm150 saving in the drawer and continue my mission. I found a cute big bear in my mum's fren shop, i think it will be a good birthday present for xin yi, so I bought it...Actually, i am planning to sing k to celebrate with her at night but unfortunately, swee yee and heong not free, so we just give xin yi a present...

xin yi's birthday present from us (wen fei, lo, chai, heong, lune, kayu, swee yee and i)

Later, i go to fetch my sis back from aunt's home and my aunt invite us to have dinner at their house. Then, i went back to take a bath and facebook-ing awhile then only go to aunt's house with my mum since my dad also have to go for a wedding dinner. Actually, i am dislike my aunt's dishes because they're so plain...

After a while, all of us and aunt's neighbours sit together and eat something after the grandma pray to the moon such as mooncake, peanut, fruits, jelly mooncake.....Suddenly, my dad gave me a call that he had finished the dinner and bought some fried chicken wings and crabs, so my mum ask him to bring along to here. Then, when i put them on the table, all the auntie said 'don't want, don't want', but then all finished there, haha...(they can be said as my family real meal, not like my aunt's dishes and i ate not much, xexe...)

My cousins, my sis and i chit-chatting until 11pm, then i just went home with my mum since my sis said want to stay overnight at my aunt's home to sleep with my cousin. That's how my mid-autumn this year, although nothing special, but can be said happy also...

what happen to me?

2009-08-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

am i good enough? am i feeling too proud with my own self? am i always want to win and be the top? am i unhappy that someone has pulling me down? am i too stress to my own? is my 'face' too thin? or m i really not that good? am i???
i don't know what happen to me, but i know this is my weakness. Maybe not everyone can realise it but some close friends or people who care me. Although i know they wish to help me but sorry, i am the one don't know how to express myself, my feeling, anything. i never want people to know what am i really thinking deeply inside or even hide them if i can. i think all of them never expect that i am a person like this. sometimes i hate myself also. care about all the things i did especially something with my abilities, is it my fault?

tired week

2009-08-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

my econ presentation group...

I am very tired after last week maybe is because of the assignments (econ and talk show).The day after econ presentation, we only start our preparation, draw the mahjong paper and so on...since we get the question on saturday before and we have to present it on tuesday, some more we don't really know about the question, IT"S REALLY HARD!!! it's about GDP, the subject i don't really understand...haiz...but luckily we can finish it by getting information from min zhi's auntie and his mum...what a big project...haha...the day when presentation, actually we all plan to 'plagiarise' some lecturer's and tutor's ways to teach to present our topic, but unfortunately seems that everyone is 'brain freezed' , so that we don't do like that, if not, the situation will be 'cold'...haiz...but luckily our presentation can end 'in peace'...

my talk show group...i am looking so weird there...

kar sin is missing there because sick already...

With the special attire of tung yen and kar sin, we get a 41/50...is it can be considered as a good result or not?since it cannot hit our target...anyway, it's good enough already and our efforts are not wasted because we really did a lot for that. Luckily, I din't spoil the show...

I was informed to get the scholarship on last Sunday from the temple association at 9am. So that day, i wake up early in the morning just to get my 'fruit' of my result. After having breakfast, i went to the hall on time because I think that the scholarship will be distributed from SPM to UPSR but then it's from UPSR to SPM...wuwu~i had waited long time about 2 hours there...if i know will be like that, I will sleep enough then only go for that. I get RM100 for it which means each A in my result is only worth for RM10...wuwu~ so cheap...but better than nothing la...xexe...

finally

2009-08-06T02:42:00.000-07:00

Finally, the mid term is finished.Again, i don't have confidence the most in eng paper...Anyway, it's a good news to finish the mid term test but there is also a bad news, i have to continue doing assignments again (econ presentation, talk show computer studies presentation and english grammar presentation)... Really, as what Mr Nawin say before, after week 3 we will be pressured especially assignments...it's true...so many assignments are waiting for me...I think next sem will be more assignments...wuwu~

Yesterday, I get a form on my table, that is scholarship form offered by persatuan Cheng Ying Lian Hua, the requirement is my parents have to be the member lukily my dad is the one...haha...Then, my friend told my that "Pei Yuan Senior Club" gt offer scholarship also.Today, my sister get the form for me already.OMG! pareants have to be the member again but my pareants didn't enter as member...now i am looking for my friend's parents or relatives to write their name as my guardian in the form so that it can offer me...some more i can get extra money because of getting A in bahasa cina...(it's a chance to 'earn' money using my result, haha...)

happy happy...

2009-07-31T06:19:00.000-07:00

I get my midterm result in public speaking today.i get 29/30, so happy...i never aspect this such high mark because there are still many classmates stronger than me....however, i am happy and satisfy with that...So far, i feel that public speaking is the easiest paper in midterm and computer studies is the hardest(so many things to memorise like history)...wuwu~some more next tues night will be the english test, i have no idea of what to study and it is the subject i have the less confidence to do it well...what can i do is just pray for it...

nearly finish mid term...

2009-07-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

haiz...finally finished the mid term test, now just left math test 2 and english test...i am so worry about the english test since my english so poor some more have vocabulary in it, i have to convert it into another word...scare cannot score la...wuwu~
Although 70% of the mid term test are done,but still cannot take rest and relax.There is still a talk show waiting for me...last week, we just formed our group, consists of chun way, kar sin(mr confuse), tung yen and the group leader is gary, so i am the only girl in the group.when we discussing what the topic to choose, these guys really can't tahan la...(whole brain full of 'yellow' things) maybe i can be considerate because they are guys ma...haha...what the hell they choosed the 'pornography' as topic and tung yen and me have to be the porn movie star (so embarassing...)Think also know that topic so super sensitive la, how can score with that topic! Even worse, before this, they choosed rape as topic and i be the victim, stand up to say the feeling (OS:where got the rape victim willing to come out and say out the feeling aloud?! so 'special')If you are the tutor, will you give high marks to such group with that kind of topic? That's why i not really agree with that topic....
Finally, we had change our topic to plastic surgery, that's sound much better right?I think so...and, my senior told me never try to do sensitive topic or else you will get low marks, and he said there was a group in his class did plastic surgery and get the highest mark...i am not sure that whether i can get the highest mark or not unless not the lowest mark...we draw lots before and we are the 3rd group to present,that's after min zhi's group.scare la...so stress...he's too geng...hope my group can do it well la...good luck to me~lucky~

活著讓你好好愛我

2009-07-21T03:36:00.000-07:00

这是一个真实的故事……一天一个男孩送给他的女朋友一台汉显传呼机，温柔的对她说："我以后再也不怕找不到你了。"女孩调皮的说："如果我离开这座城市，你就呼不到我了。"男孩得意的摇摇头："我可是办了漫游的，无论你走到哪里我都会呼到你"女孩问他的传呼号是什么，男孩说："这是爱情专线，号码不公开。"从此女孩每天都把它带在身边，一刻也不离开。在一个阳光明媚，让人有一份好的不得了的心情的周末，女孩只留了一张字条给父母，坐上汽车奔向邻近的县城游玩，但是没有人知道女孩正走向一场灾难。女孩县城玩了一天，拖着沉沉的脚步找到一间带淋浴的小旅馆。一走进房间，女孩迫不及待的走进浴室，想洗去一身的疲惫。当女孩正准备脱衣服的时候，脚下一阵晃动，她急忙扶住一根铁管，心想错觉吗？但是当第二次晃动，女孩知道这不是错觉。跟随第二次的晃动中还带有急促和沉闷的断裂声，女孩的全身开始颤栗，她知道可怕的地震来了，随! 着第三第四次的更加猛烈的震动，无边的黑暗和无边的恐惧把女孩紧紧的包裹起来女孩象一只受伤的野兽，拼命的放声号叫，拼命的拍打、撕咬浴室的门板。然而一切都是徒劳，女孩无力的蜷缩在阴凉冷漠的地上。不知过了多久，忽然腰间一阵颤动，是呼机。女孩匆匆的摘下它，在黑暗中摸索着按到了键子，即看到了绿色的光芒："林先生请你七点钟到老地方见面。"读着这句话，女孩的泪水又一次涌出来，滑过嘴角。咸咸涩涩的。想着电话那边的他，女孩又再一次尝试着走出困境，但是是再一次的徒劳与绝望。女孩跌坐在地上，把自己缩成一团，眼睛盯着呼机的屏幕。不知过了多久，女孩睡着了，又不知过了多久，呼机再一次在女孩的手中颤动了："林先生问你在哪里，请速回电话。"女孩再一次的流下眼泪，我想告诉你我在哪里，但是我办不到啊。渐渐的女孩平静了下来，面对无法挽回的死亡，女孩不知道自己还能做什么。呼机第三次震动："去了你家，看到你留下的字条，请火速回家。"女孩的心又开始躁动。呼机第四震动："我听到广播，知道你那里发生了什么，相信你此时正拿着呼机读我的话，我们很快会见面的。"似乎有一缕曙光在女孩的眼前闪过。女孩期待呼? 谖宕蔚恼鸲?BR>，此时的呼机成了他生命唯一的寄托。时间一分一秒的过去了，呼机象一个疲惫的孩子一样睡着了。终于第五次的震动来了："我去找你，车不通，想尽各种办法，还是无功而返。我相信你不会出问题的，你是一个聪明又好运的女孩。我等待你的归来！"第六次，第七次。。。。女孩在男孩一次又一次的传呼中度过了一个又一个恐惧与绝望的时刻，不知不觉已经两天两夜了。死亡的阴影越来越紧的箍住女孩的全身，仿佛看到自己体内的鲜血和肌肉正被一条黑色的巨蛇一口一口贪婪的吞噬。女孩觉得自己快不行了，连哭泣的力量都没有了，她的思想开始混乱，感觉自己正在往下沉，就在沉到底的时候，呼机第三十八次，也许第四十八次，五十八次震动起来，那震动象磁铁一样，牢牢的吸住了女孩体内残余的所有能量："我们什么时候结婚？举行哪些仪式？从现在开始我们分别设想一下，日后评出最佳方案。"结婚，婚礼，实在是太诱人了，女孩陷入了遐想之中。海底婚礼，象鱼一样自由自在穿梭在海洋世界；跳伞婚礼，与白云并肩飞在空中……女孩再一次振作起来，是啊，人生那么美好，又有多少美好的人生的等着我呢。第六十次，第六十一次。……男孩! 一次又一次的向女孩传呼，一次又一次的给女孩注入生命的活力；一次又一次的把女孩的生存信念从崩溃的边缘拉回来……度过了漫长的四个昼夜，女孩获救了。当他看到男孩惨白的脸，火一样的眼睛，一下子明白了世间最为珍贵的就是爱。女孩在担架上轻轻的拉着男孩的手，柔柔的说："我是你今生的新娘"。活着让你好好爱我！！！

Touching story...

2009-07-13T02:03:00.000-07:00

I have been touched by a real story told by my lecturer, ms Chan...
There was a woman who had a happy and perfect family with her husband and a 3 years old daughter...
One day, she found that she had a cancer, the doctor said it's cannot be cured and she will die one day, then she asked her husband not to tell her daughter about that but then she had to stay in hospital all the time...
Everyday, her husband will bring the daughter to visit her mum and play with her to have fun time.When they are on the way, the husband will give a call to her,"Dear, we are on the way."
Then the woman just get up with her pale face and tired body. She called the nurses to make up for her, took off the patient clothes and dressed nicely, as pretty as she can to meet with her lovely daughter.They will play around the hospital, chit-chatting, having fun with that since the daughter don't know what is hospital and what is it for.She just think that it is the place for her to play and having fun with her mum....
This is going on everyday again and again until her doctor said :"Can you stop doing that?! Your body is becoming weaker and weaker, you're using all your energy for that or else you cannot life long with that.""No, I will continue do that, please help me."she said.The nurses and doctor now only realise how much she love her daughter and don't want her daughter being hurt.Whenever she is playing with her daughter around the hospital, the nurses cannot even smile since she is sacrifying her own to make her daughter happy.
Until one day, she had no more energy to play with her daughter anymore or even can't get up from the bed.When her daughter came, she said: "My dear, mummy is very tired, want to sleep, can you play for your own with big brothers and sisters outside?" The daughter said:"okay, mum." Then she just went out and start jumping here and there to have fun. Her mum is then took her last breathe and passed away...
Now, the little girl is grown up to about 16 years old. Whenever she is been asking:"Where is your mum?" She will answer :"Mummy is very tired, she is sleeping now." After she answered it, she will always turn back and cry since it is the last word that her mother left to her...
so touching right? I feel so... don't know what you all feel to it...

"loh kah ying"

2009-07-10T07:03:00.000-07:00

This is first time I have my own blog...
don't know what to write or share with you all...
Today, I finally finished my 5 minutes presentation.Actually the presentation is started two weeks ago, since I am the last one, so I just finished today, already scare about 2 weeks about this...And, all of this is our class rep,tom yam's fault, because before this our tutor is Ms Anulia, quite a good tutor.She asked tom yam whether want to do the presentation by following the name list or draw lots.When he knew that he will enter the 1st group if follow the name list so he said draw lots.Then I become the last one already, actually I am the 1st if following the name list...haih...
A weeks ago, our public speaking tutor is changed to Mr Chee...OMG! If you want me to define how he looks like, I would like to say he looks like "loh kah ying",haha...it's not bad enough,but the even worse...he so straight to us, he wanted us to do hardcopy for presentation for him, don't know whether is he don't know what are we talking about or just give marks from the outline...haiz...
Maybe you all don't know how big is my cue card, it's even smaller than half of my palm and is just 1 piece.When I finished presenting my topic, that "loh kah ying" 's comment to me is "TOO MUCH READING FROM CUE CARDS!", my respone is just "ha?" At that time, I really want to punch him or throw my shoes to him...damn...Anyway, it's over already.
Say truly, I really scare when I presenting my topic.When the classmates before me presenting, all just noisy and kacau sahaja.When it's my turn, suddenly all quiet and looks so attention to my speech...hey, guys, so scary la...don't be like this, please...